Jess

Like two puzzles mixed Some things just don't fit together Like thunder and water, ice and fire Like something new and something whethered Like black and white Like round and square Like hot and cold Or ugly and fair Like sharp and dull Like day and night Like long and short Or wrong and right You can't have it both ways You need to make up your mind If you look close enough The answer you will find You can't love and hate You can't die and live You can't say you'll try And then refuse to give Some things don't fit together And we still can't say why Some things don't fit together Just like you and I... Written by Jess Submitted by Jess

#puzzles, #mixed

Scars and broken hearts Will be the last to heal Vengeful, unforgiving And yet they seem surreal The vengeful like to hurt By telling poison lies Yet the unforgiving will do anything Just to see you cry So fake a smile and try and stay Away from their tradedy The more you stay and wonder The more a part of them you'll be They do need help it's true But usually it's too late If you stay around too long You give them something to hate It's true, all our hearts have broken At least once or twice To be alone is so depressing As shadows chill us all like ice So never underestimate A broken heart of scar Because if you give it time It will become who they are Written by Jess Submitted by Jess

#scars, #broken, #hearts

Fatal words of tragedy, Spin into lullabies They burn into my memory As I tell loving lies More forward into dawn Or back into regret And act like the future told you That your fate has been set "Didn't I know you?" You say to the mirror And you look into his eyes You see into his fear But you don't run away, You look closer to see That he's really looking forward To finally being free You chained yourself to fate Thinking you have nowhere to go But there's so much more out there That you have to see to know. Written by Jess Submitted by Jess

#memory

My empty promises Led to our demise And I could never tell you how I really feel And for that I eternally apologize I hope you never forget the tapping at your window With the harsh cold and the jealousy Running through my bones We were both selfish, but I think I was more I would like to thank you, for showing me A part of myself that I have never seen Yeah, we were young and dumb, but it still was fun And I guess these things just tend to fall apart And I hope you feel the same My empty promises My empty promises Brought us to an end I just hurt you and I never looked back Now I have no logic to defend I hope you never forget the tapping at your window With the harsh cold and the jealousy Running through my bones We were both selfish, but I think I was more I would like to thank you, for showing me A part of myself that I have never seen Yeah, we were young and dumb, but it still was fun And I guess these things just tend to fall apart I would like to thank you, for showing me A part of the world that I have never seen Yeah, I was young and dumb, but it still was fun I'm forever indebted to you I hope you feel the same You seem like such a big part Of my life and my heart But the truth is I've found something new And she easily towers over you You seem like such a big part Of my life and my heart But the truth is I've found something new And she easily towers over you Written by The Spill Canvas Submitted by Jess

Believeing, deceiving Look into the sun. Reliving, forgiving, What have I done? More lying, still dying Can't push this away Stressing, confessing Now what will you say? I'm sorry, so sorry That I didn't tell you I was nervous, and scared I didn't know what to do Reliving, forgiving I'm so glad you're alright. No more crying, or lying Now everything's right. Written by Jess Submitted by Jess

#forgiven

Stories weaved and spun Put together like sweet dreams And told in such loud voices So they drown out my screams Hurting high above the rest But hiding deep within my smile You want to know what's wrong? Well that could take a while. The empathetic enemy That I see in the mirror She tries to fix the world While shedding silent tears Her optimistic words Mixed with pessimistic fears, Build as she soaks in all the lies And tries to dry her tears She told me that she's broken That she doesn't want to lie But she can't ever bare to see When her friends start to cry The reflection spoke so loudly Though silence filled the room Then she began to smile It's her mask, and her tomb Tomb of lies and content She looked as happy as could be But she looked in my eyes and said "Don't you lie to me" Written by Jess Submitted by Jess

#heart

Another night again Another journey without friends Another fight to wish away, the loneliness I live Another circus show Another face that I don't know Another night of people asking what I have to give I thought that I would drown But it's ok right now And all the miles away I feel A part of me I have to fight Buried somewhere deep beneath my skin The emptiness in me is faded And I can see my life is waiting Now I know I’m living for who I am Now I know I'm living for who I am The fire crawls inside The feeling can not be denied When everywhere I turn the signs and guides, they push me I was fallin down It's ok right now..... And all the miles away I feel A part of me I have to fight Buried somewhere deep beneath my skin The emptiness in me is faded And I can see my life is waiting Now I know I’m living for who I am Everything seems grey And everyone is fake And no one really knows you Look into their eyes Rip off your disguise Let them see the real you And all the miles away I feel A part of me I have to fight Buried somewhere deep beneath my skin The emptiness in me is faded And I can see my life is waiting Now I know I’m living for who I am Now I know I'm living for who I am Written by Smile Empty Soul Submitted by Jess

lost in a haunting thought spinning me around once more I wake, just to feel the wait as the daylight comes around I turn with my eyes on the back door your face is light and cocaine white one message beating through smokes filled the air and I'm struggling to breathe let them be calm so I finally can sleep everything you intended to say don’t go back on your words you always said you'd tell me first verse after endless verse I can't escape the echo words I long, long to find a cure for the fear that I find in these cords I smile as it burns your face is light and cocaine white one message beating through I've been erased I've been erased from the picture excuse, oh no anything goes excuses, you know it doesn’t work excuse, oh no anything goes excuses don’t work. Excuse me this will close im desperate excuse me this will close im desperate smokes filled the air and I'm struggling to breathe let them be calm so I finally can sleep everything you intended to say don’t go back on your words you always said you'd tell me first smokes filled the air and I'm struggling to breathe let them be calm so I finally can sleep Written by Circa Survive Submitted by Jess

#theives

No one can see tears In such heavy rain And no one said That I wasn't in pain I swore I'd never lie And I swear I never did But when you gave up My true feelings I hid Don't tell me that you hate me Cause you know that isn't true Otherwise you wouldn't say "I said I love you and I swear I still do" You probably don't like it Cause you don't think I'm hurting like I should But if I had tears to cry You know I f*cking would It breaks my heart to know That you're still going to try To get through to me at all Because it makes me want to die So I'm telling you, move on If you stay you're going to see That you push me farther away Everytime you try and talk to me But if decide to stay And not listen to my words I won't feel bed for you And you get what you deserve "But I can't stop you Falling like a star Sinking like a stone Watching as the world you're in Slowly takes it's toll" Written by Jess Submitted by Jess

#lucky

Will you walk straight? We’re not like them To fool them in, Make it seem like you're in trouble Make a sound, Fake it enough. What made you so scared? Maybe you're mistaken for someone who cares If you remember, remember I’ve been trying to get back to the center I’m sure it’s not like it was before To make them drink, Tell them that it’s only water No one leaves ’Till we figure this out What made you so scared? Maybe you're mistaken for someone who cares Patience, Both we and our words are over produced by influence By influence Patience Both we and our words are over produced by influence By influence By influence I’m only asking if you remember, remember I’ve been trying to get back to the center And I’m sure it’s not like it was... Written by Circa Survive Submitted by Jess

#appalled

Don't read this if you miss me Don't read this if you care Don't read this if you love me Or if you were "always there" Don't read this if you need me Or if I'm your "guiding light" Don't read this if you want me there From night to endless night The painful truth; I'm gome And I can't answer your call So if you don't like being hurt Then don't read this at all Written by Jess Submitted by Jess

I'm glad we can both move past this With little trouble at all This makes it so much better For neither of us to fall I see that you've moved on And that's very good to see I'd hate for you to live your life Always missing me Yes, anger's so much better Maybe I should try Even thouhg I know your hate Is edging on a lie So just to make this easy I'll avoid you if I can We'll never fight again If we stick to that plan. Again, I'm sorry that I did What I knew I had to do But I knew you began to see There's no hope for me and you We were just too different In so very many ways And when we started fighting, I began counting days. Same thing over and over I've saved us, now it's gone Wake up with no regrets The new beginning starts at dawn. Written by Jess Submitted by Jess