Uptown

Sitting here bewildered and left in such frustration From the shock you posed upon me after our last conversation You caught me by surprise, you know, I never had clue Did I fall for the devil when I fell in love with you? You told me that you loved me and you surely seemed to care I believed what you had told me although others said “beware” You were nice to all my friends, this was something I adore How was I to know, that you were up to something more You acted so sweet to me and you seemed to be so kind You were gentle as a puppy but turned out to be a swine While making me believe our eyes would always seek each other You blinded your eyes to me but they opened for another Now, I hear you telling me that I must go away After promising that your love would be with me everyday The last thing that you told me is “it’s time to say goodbye” You took my heart then, broke it, and you never told me why I guess this is a game you played with others in the past I hope you have enjoyed it ‘cause it’s going to be your last I’ll wake from my bewilderment and shake off my frustration I’ll be sure to warn all others not to fall for your temptation Someday You will come to find that you are all alone And the only heart that’s broken is the one which is your own.

#love, #hate, #deception, #lies

I sit here, it’s late, feeling all aloneI want to call you on the telephoneI want to wake up to see your beautiful faceSweep you up and get away from this placeBack to the day when we first metWhen our time together was never setWhen most our days turned into nightsWhen the love we shared always felt so rightDrinking and laughing at the local barPacking our friends into one of our carsFeeling good from Captain Morgan and CokeExtending the fun until the daylight brokeI wish these times never had to endWhen you were my lover, you were my best friendAlthough we lived our lives fancy and freeI was with you and you were here with meWe never let anything keep us apartWe listened to no one, we just heard with our heartGod never told me of the price I’d payWhen he gave you to me then he took you awayBut now, I sit here, feeling all aloneI can’t even call you on the telephoneWithout you lying here next to meThis is a place where I’d rather not beIf I can’t wake to see your beautiful faceThen I’ll sweep up my heart and get away from this place.

#love, #life, #alone, #death

My dearest love, I ask of youTo understand my painThe hopelessness I’m feelingHas been driving me insaneWe rarely see each otherWhich is more than I can bareFor years we stayed togetherNow, I look and your not thereOur bond, once undividedSevered by our separationOur togetherness is furthered As we’re facing our frustrationMy love remains undyingMy compassion always trueBut, My life has no more meaningIf I live it without youMisfortune is upon meAnd my hope has gone astrayMy will to go on livingSeems to weaken everydayMy dearest love, I’m sorryIf I choose not to remainThis wasn’t how I meant for youTo understand my pain.

#love, #life, #understanding, #pain, #sorrow, #suicide

Memories of a better timeNever can be soldLaughs you share with good friendsMore valuable than goldA stare into your lovers eyesA sight you won’t forgetA night held in their loving armsIs time you won’t regretA wedding or reunionA fond gathering of folksCousins, aunts and unclesCatching up and telling jokes  Christmas with your familyA cheerful time togetherA fun filled summer vacationNothing could be betterThese are life’s true treasuresWhich can never be replacedMemories of a better time...Are times to be embraced.

#memories, #love, #family, #friends

What has happened to our country? Have most of you gone blind? Don’t you see the path we’re taking? Can’t you read between the lines? Did common sense elude us? Did we choose to look away... from our governments corruption and the tax they make us pay Republican or democrat It really doesn’t matter Both parties steal our money Just to make their wallets fatter Have we all become so lazy that we can’t become involved? If we don’t rise up together then our problems won’t get solved! America, I beg of you To stop our segregation Don’t fight amongst each other... Come together, as one nation Our freedom’s on the line And we won’t get satisfaction Until the tyrants of this country See we’re ready to take action We’ll defeat the new world order And restore our constitution We’ll ensure our country’s freedom With a second revolution We must all fight for our liberty We must keep our justice true It’s time we pledged allegiance To the old Red, White and Blue!

#freedom, #corruption, #greed, #control

Look through the cloudsand beyond the seaThe beauty you'll feel...is me.

Look through the earthand past the treesFrom california to the florida keys

From the mountain topsand below the sandsacross every meadowof all great lands

in the skies abovefrom star to starThroughout the universenear and far

Just open your sensesand be awareWith your consciousnessYou'll feel me there

Don't be afraidIt's only meNot my body...My energy

#love, #enlightment, #energy, #life, #afterlife, #heaven

Wash ashore with meLets dance under the moonlightFrantically, jumping aboutWe'll rave past midnight

We'll be dancing in a crowdWith peoples hands all over usAnd as we slip away We'll be creating such a fuss

Our silver suits will shineMaking it hard for us to hideBut soon we'll be alone To fertilize the tide

We can frolic in the sandAnd bury ourselves deepWe'll repopulate these watersAnd we won't get any sleep

Before the daylight breaksWe'll make a break back to the seaAnd return another nightIf no one catches you and me

We will wash ashore againHours past the setting sun'Cause we're a couple grunionOn another Grunion Run!

#dance, #midnight, #rave, #fun, #beach

My best friends foreverAre here by my sideTo help me forgetAll the days that I've cried

Since the first day we metOur friendship has grownThey don't speak a wordBut their purpose is known

They'll bring me the comfortTo help ease my painThey'll erase all the anguishWhich I have obtained

Together, they'll bringThe susbstance I needTo cast out the fearWhich my mind may breed

They'll clear me a pathAnd show me the wayTo the light that I seekOn my dying day

When I take my last breathThey'll all be togetherVicodin, Xanax and SomaMy best friends forever.

 

#suicide, #friends, #dying, #fear

I feel your hands upon meEven though you're not aroundPushing me with insults'Til I'm six feet underground

Although, my life is fragileYou don't handle me with careYou ignore my situationAnd throw daggers with your stare

You slaughter my contentmentAnd you bleed me of my willYou feast upon my hopeAs you move in for the kill

The anguish you've embeddedHas been burning me insideMy tears turn into ashesAs my life and death collide

One day, you will realizeExactly what you've doneBy pushing me away...You pushed, to death, your youngest son.

#suicide, #hate, #guilt, #anger, #resentment

Love can be so painfulIt can tear you up insideFrom beggining to the endIt controls your heart and mind

At first you "fall in love"Now, I can't speak for youBut everytime I've fallenSomething ends up black and blue

But love becomes much strongerSo you "open up your heart"Just like a bypass surgeryYour chest is torn apart

Then love controls your mindWhen It's all you think aboutIt kills your intuitionAnd leaves no room for doubt

Love will get much deeperAnd although your feeling fineWhen your "floating on a cloud"Your really clouding up your mind

Love becomes addictingAnd you just can't get enoughIf just one day your without itYou begin to crave the stuff

When love is all around youYour heart has a rapid beatYour hands begin to sweatWhen love sweeps you off your feet

If you ever get rejectedBy the love that you have foundA knot grows in your stomachAnd your world get turned aroundSo, don't take love for grantedIf you find it, take it slowAnd If love becomes too painfulYou had better let it go!

#love, #pain, #hurt

Chances are...Your balancing your checkbookAnd you hate the way it feelsWhen your funds are running lowAnd you haven't payed your bills

Chances are...Your sitting all aloneWith a broken heartBecause someone said "I Love You"Then tore your world apart

Chances are...Your angry at a family memberFor what they did or saidAnd the terrible way they treat youKeeps running through your head

Chances are...Your kneeling in a churchWith your fingers clutched togetherWhile a friend lies in the hospitalYou pray that they'll get better

Chances are...Your looking at a pictureAs tears pour from your eyesBecause a loved one past awayAnd it took you by surprise

Chances are...You woke up in the morningFeeling so depressedWith no reason to get showeredOr a purpose to get dressed

Chances are...Your contiplating suicideEach and every dayYou have nothing left to live forand no reason you should stay

Chances are...If you read all that I've writtenChances are that you will seeThere's a chance it's not about youIt's my own biography.

#chances, #life, #death, #depression, #suicide

America, I beg of youPlease, open up your eyesSeek the truth about our governmentPlease read between the lines

All facts are only fictionSpoken with deceitful spinThe truth is always hiddenSo the secrets stay within

9-11 was a coverupThe evidence is clearTo take our bill of rightsIt only took one day of fear

Trillions of tax dollarsspent on systems for defenseBroken by sand dwelling arabsDo you think that this makes sense?

War makes rich men wealthierSo, in the name of greedThey buy the men in officeAnd those men "plant the seed"

Conspiracies aren't theoriesThey are elements of factSacraficing U.S. citizensWhile the news reports "attack"

Five thousand brave, young soldiers dead In a war built on corruptionYet, We never find bin ladenOr "weapons for mass destruction"

We spent billions in tax dollarsAnd the lies are all well knownGeorge Bush should be in prisonAnd Our troops should all be home

America, I beg of youWake up and take a standRestore the constitutionIt's the law of this great land.

#america, #constitution, #conspiracy, #freedom, #war