tom bennett

University is suppose to be the place where u set out your destiny

But let me tell you my view personally cus university as only worsened me

You get out what you put in, simple as that, but the temptations of a student life are too hard to combat

I’m Struggling to get my life on track, setbacks often appear,i know i’ts the motivation i lack , and too me thats clear

I fear I’m gonna just let it go, I’ve had my chance,a chance I’ve blown, and all along I’ve known, I’ve let myself down and I ain’t grown.

But who am i to moan i put myself in this predicament, my family show care n love but I don’t need this medicament. N i wish i could reciprocate but i can’t, my life disintegrate, i just feel inadequate, they’d be better off without me, a ghost left to haunt.

N it’s not that i don’t want to, its that i feel i cant , inadequate feeling they i aren’t n i never will be, , its just not who i am n i stand here in guilt , ive failed my family and myself ,n ive ruined my career and my health,

and i may appear to not care but stare long enough into my eyes and its there, distraught dissatisfied embraced by self hate

Im not expecting people to relate , but there must of been a time where you look at mirror and feel pure hate, disgraced at urself knowing your just like the people of the unemployment rate, I’M not saying it was my fate but its too late to change

Rearrange the way im living, give back what i get given, thats all i want to do proof to myself its worth living i want my parents to receive a whole year of thanksgiving.

My past aint that great n my futures lookin the same

N i hate to admit but im the only one to blame

Below average credentials,working 5% of my potential

But Its essential that i try to break these chains

N experience a life of benefit n gains

Still needing support, hurting the people who have faith in me, knowing I’ve let them down considerably, and the only person to blame is me. i hate myself , i hate what ive become, i hate this waster scum they were once proud to call their son.

Sat here its clear i fear what ive become , ma tears left here to dry up in the sun

Sat here its clear i fear what ive become, my tears left here to dry up in the sun

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I cry my heart out every single day Wishing, hoping for a way Where I can touch your skin Fill you in, with what’s on my mind Praying, hoping you’ll find a way To turn back time

Clouded internally, eyes notably glowing Erupting emotions externally flowing

I Tried breaking this routine, free me from myself Alone in this journey, lips locked, heart shocked Aching, pleading to change, to better my health

Wealthy in this currency of tears, Fears evolve, overloading, minds exploding with this weightI’ve given up, 'n' left my destiny down to fate

This infinite love fuelling my heart shouts out for you, screaming for attention. My soul threaded, embedded and entwined with yours is shouting out for acceptation. I’m standing highlighted in green, jealousy beyond my control, Landing in a quilt of serene blue, I repel you, infect your soul

Waiting, admiring, desiring you whole Feel free to join me on this road Mentally, physically, loves taken its tollAid me with this heavy loadThis is my dream, my wish and hopeswill these words below ever be spoke?

I love you, and I’m squeezing you tight I’m never letting you go I hold your hand and connect are fingers for this feeling shall forever flow

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When were parted I feel down and illyou’re my lover, my addiction, my daily pill. I need you here to hold me tight still my fears throughout the night. pull me close and kiss my lipshold me tight with your fingertips

the physical side is nothing comparedto the emotional feelings, that we’ve sharedlay with me now, snuggled in this quiltand enjoy this love we have gradually built

candles burn out, fires are weakbut this flame’s eternal, our love is uniquemy heart is yours, my soul is boundto your entire existence, true love I’ve found

I look into your eyes and see my future

I hold your hands and feel my life

I listen to your heart and hear 2 beatsTogether were entwined and our rhythm meetsOne is yours and one is mineThis love that’s present is so divine

Never let me go, I urge you to listenMy tear drops start to fall my eyes are puppy dogged and they start to glistenMy fear is that your love will stall

I love you, and I’m squeezing you tightI’m never letting you goI hold your hand and connect are fingersFor this love shall forever flow.

#love, #apart, #hurts

Slowly drifting, silence creeping, hearts wounded, cuts seeping Encrypted smiles, forbidden pleasures, lonely miles, hidden treasures Beauty crafted, souls free, truly wanting unity Throw your spikes of sarcasm Overwhelm me with darts of destruction Pierce me with your shafts of emerald green stares Jealousy condensed into crystal like éclairs. A Delicious deceit viciously discreet Admiring me, desiring me, obsessively wanting me Eternity is forever ticking away. Your wrinkles display wisdom, Your veteran skin is your justification of existence. You’ve lived and gave others the opportunity For that I’m thankful Our souls hold the key to eternal peace and unity. Allow us to live and experience You have the steering wheel of your own destiny Your fate is in your hands of existence Life is your own path, now start walking.

It’s strange to be here, the mystery never leaves u alone, the image of our future destined upon us with the hearts of gold this deep infinite love fuelling my heart shouts out for you, screaming for attention. My soul threaded, embedded and entwined with yours is shouting out for acception. We both possess and sense this deep love that lingers in the air, Patient yet anticipating, ready to jump. You have opened my eyes, and for now I stare, Listening to the rhythmic bass my heart thumps. Although the word love is repeated and mislaid, beaten and made sour . It’s the meaning of love I show which is the infinite power. I’m weakened by your existence, I feel for you, I’m hurt and need you to heal me. Conceal my scars and feel me, I do love you and forever will If you’re not with me physically then search into my heart I will be with you mentally For true love cannot part.

Humongous words amaze minimalist minds, horrendous rhythmic beauty streaming eternal lies, flow forever floating upon a never ending stream, corrupted disrupted by broken down beams. Shattered, clouded internally , reaching externally , erupting waves crash impulsively onto your torn soul, the mood changes directions persuaded to reverse into blackened holes, goals clouded aims shrouded mist is visible life is miserable, drunk is vocabulary. sounds mean words and words equal jumble, splattered, pissed, u get the gist , this is blabber with a point I’m drunk but not fully, fill me more with your yellow poison, add red bull enter my mind shatter my head retard my brain I’m backwards yet walking forwards I’m stable yet on the floor, I’m on my own two feet but leaning , I’m numb and bleeding yet I have no feeling. pity me, spit on me, its your own choice, but ignore my voice its wrong, I’m possessed by this depressant, a social drink that makes u anti – social – where’s the sense in that where’s your thinking hat help me clear my mind its hard to find a rhyme that’s designed to dodge those invisible mines, planted everywhere you go, sometimes you should say NO before you do become drunk.

#drink

Theres no reason for you to leave angel you just gotta believe I'm the one to retrieve the love we weaved We can be come stronger Are hearts beat longer Are feelings grow fonder You misunderstood the feelings I portrait I don’t want you and me to fade Dissolving the love we made We have a connection A special spark We showed such affection You left me a mark Give us another chance We’d make it through You know I’ll always love you Don’t you feel the same? I know I was to blame But she’s now an old flame Already burnt away It’s just me and you I’m with you, what ever you choose to do Just remember I'll always love you. Written by tom bennett Submitted by tom bennett

#second, #chance

It’s you who I despise You bring fear to my eyes Burning the hatred inside Taking me on a twisted ride I’d like to find and grind The thoughts in your mind Bind and wined The words in your mind The flames of my heart are fuelled by you The chains of my heart are broken by you The thoughts in my head of what I’ll do My crippled soul as black as coal My spirit has no control My body pierced upon a pole Leaving bloody wounded hole It’s wise to compromise I advise no lies The sound of cries rise You disguise to surprise But I know who you are Your car, your scar Smoking your cigar I’ve found you at last A spell I cast Your heart beats fast You’re gone in a blast Written by tom bennett Submitted by tom bennett

#found

Suffocation caused by daily events alteration caused by offence twisted ways, corrupted views fading away, ready to loose terrified of what life has to bring always wondering what’s on the other side your a bird with a broken wing the gaps just too wide disheartened blackened life’s unnoticed as there washed away they have been muted no words they can say the sea of wasters is ignored there hearts have a puncher new life’s they cant afford they’ve been blocked from reality isolated from humanity The sea of wasters flows on ready to be filled up with more waste. Written by tom bennett Submitted by tom bennett

#outcast

My heart as belonged to you since the day we met I kept you warm inside, held you close as we watched the sunset My love for you is deeper than deep I gave you my trust its there to keep I reach deep into its core My feelings grow stronger I love you more and more My love grows fonder Why can’t I see you here? Kissing my lips, with your hands around my waist Why can’t I wipe away your tear? And feel how love tastes Wondering when you’ll give in to my love Let the walls around you collapse The words “I love you” Give you a shock and you gasp You definitely feel the same But you’re in a difficult position I’m the one to blame There’s no need for a decision Take my heart and I'll take yours Forget our pasts and heal our sores I will be with you foreverWritten by tom bennettSubmitted by tom bennett

#love, #poem

I’m falling apart my twisted soul my blackened hole once was my heart no thought, no feeling no reason, no meaning is there a path for me a place to be maybe a chosen destiny no memory, no sense my actions have no consequence why am I here why do I stay is there anyway I can get away I’m a waste of space there is no expression on my motionless face is there a way to disappear seeing everyone crying and smiling which I know I cant do as I’m a frozen object a sculptured statue no way to be free no way to be me I’m here but I’m worthless I’m alive but yet lifeless I have no human qualities but I’m still living doesn’t that count is my voice being heard or is no one listening? Written by tom bennett Submitted by tom bennett

#useless

As I open the window, I open it wide I feel the wind seep inside I stare at the sky, glaring at the stars hearing the rare passing by of cars This sort of moment I treasure seeing the beauty of the world sensing the wind gently touching my skin My breath creates a cloud of mist as the warmth from with-in enters the cold unknown the world as a twist as the beauty is shown It's a dark and gloomy night brightened with the city lights creating pretty shadows for the trees the leaves flow with the gentle breeze The moon fades away as the sun starts to rise this beauty unimaginable to my very own eyes As the lights are reflected of my pond the water sparkles and glimmers the light becomes stronger it begins to weaken the dark gradually day takes over the birds start to sing the world is now awake The beauty is hidden away as its a start to another day. Written by tom bennett Submitted by tom bennett

#beauty, #world