I FOUND A VERY OLD POEM OF MINE IN LOVELANDIA ARCHIEVE TAKE A LOOK http://www.lovelandia.com/archive/003052.htmlAND IT HONESTLY MADE TEARS FORM IN MY EYES FROM READING IT BECAUSE I REMEMBER THE FEELING I HAD WHEN SHE LEFT and... HOW MUCH MY POETIC STYLE HAS WITHSTAND THE TEST OF TIME AND MY CURRENT WORKS SOUNDS UMMM 5 YEARS OLD...LOLSomething must be wrong with me with all this hurt inside,always bursting with anger - and never any pride.Something must be wrong with me if all I do is cry,I can't stop this pain - all I want to do is die.Something must be wrong with me if my emotions run wild,all this confusion does - is make me feel like a lost child.Something must be wrong with me with all these terrible things,always there and never gone - depression is what it brings.Something must be wrong with me if I can't stop these thoughts,all this pain does - is turn my stomach in knots.Something is truly wrong with me when living without you I think there's only one way out except "Putting a gun to my head and blowing my brains out."Written By Andraeahnlus Oniexerxes LegacyInspired By Tara McVeyP.S.-POEM IS OFFICIALLY TO BE CONTINUED - THIS SPARKED ALOT OF EMOTIONS IN ME ABOUT TARA THAT HAS CAUSED ME TO START A SECTION ENTITLED "SOMETHING MUST BE WRONG WITH YOU" - SO LOOK OUT FOR THE UPDATED "LONGER" VERSION
on this special day,i have a gift for you,it is not even fancy, or shiney,hmmn...pffft matter of fact its not even new,it cannot be opened like a packagein any the normal way,but you can be sure that you will have it for a long timeforever its is here to stayit has no fruity wrapping paper,or a beautiful pink bow,for it is something oh so special,that very few even knowno vast wealth can ever buy this peerless gift, that i eagerly plan to give,and i promise to give it no otherfor as long as I may live.and if you have not guessedwhat this gift may beit is my love and my heart baby...indubitably - its the gift of "me".Written By Andraeahnlus Oniexerxes LegacyInspired By Tara McVey
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i try to block the thoughts of youcompletely out of my mindi don't know what's happeningis this why "love is so blind?"y do I dream of you?wishing you were herey do I long to see you?y do I wish you were near?im so infatuated with youbut I want that feeling to endi know you don't feel the samei just want my heart to mendi secretly hide these feelingskeeping them locked up insidereluctantly asking my friends for their helpat least I have in them to confideone second i think im succeedingand the feeling i have for u is dyingthen i feel that i am killing sumthing that could be amazingnow it feels like my heart is cryingat least I had the guts to sayhow I really feel about youi wished that you felt the sameand that you cared for me tooi guess all I can do nowis be a man and just let gomaybe this feelings isn't realbut ill just let things flowi thought you felt the samebut i guess i was so naiveof actually thinkin you caredhow stupid 4 me 2 believei don't know what to doi don't want to think of youmy heart is empty right nowi just want to make it throughi guess its hard for me 2 realiseor maybe you cant seem 2 understandit only takes 1 night and 1 chanceto prove to you -how much of man i truely amto show you how much i noticedthat you are a little bit intrueged by methe way you say in adoration"BabyDre..I love the way you love me"the simpliest things like that you saygives me hopes and chance to thinkthat maybe i shouldnt give up on uand leave my life at a dieing brinkmaybe i should just hang on a little bit longerand let the love grow and showits hard for me to walk away from sumthing so precioushard enough when you are the most beautiful girl i know.Written By Andraeahnlus Oniexerxes LegacyInspired By Adrianna
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It hurts to have to reach out for youwhen you are actually so near;Its like shouting out for someonewith a voice they cant even hearbut i am done reaching for youyou will forever be your own;i hope this is all worth it,is it worth being left alone?should i just simply move onand once again be freefree Of all the pain you have causedthat still resides in methat keeps me bound to youmy heart is shackled in your chainsand if a try to break freeat what cost will i pay? wat will be left of the remains?risk losing my heart over prideis that really what i would have to dodoes that justify the reason of metrying to break away from youwalking away always seems harder for the person who is going to be left behindi must be blind to even think thatcause your still in mindSo if it may seem to youthat i am still clinging to the pastits most likely because I can't acceptthat our love didn't get a chance to lastas undeniable as the factthat i just cant get over youbecause a part of me still tells meand believes you love me toobut the inevitable day is comingwhen such false hope will surely dieand ill be forced to forget youand give someone else a try..wow...it took me so longfor something so easily figured outim living in doubt...im not actually inlove with you..its your love i cant live withoutWritten By Andraeahnlus Oniexerxes LegacyInspired By Priyanka S.U.
i seem to have wanted more from youthan you were willing to freely give;but now we've gone our separate wayseach with different lives to live.my love will always be therethe friendship slighly intact;but the time for us has come and goneand time is the one thing you can't turn back.i will always be a friend to youand wonder how you are;your smile and beauty i will rememberbecause they help heal the emotional scar.i wish on those hectic dayswhen you have alot of things to do;think of me deeply in your mindso i can spend some alone time with you.and in those quite dayswhen your alone and no-ones there;just remember me passionatelythat i have always loved you and caredWritten By Andraeahnlus Oniexerxes LegacyInspired By Priyanka S.U.
she said "dont talk to me""your too old....dont you agree?""i hate you....i cant be with you"why couldn't this be something i could foresee?now i have another depression to live withonce again my emotions stand stillthe pain she causes gives me...another reason to take a pillanother reason to hideis just as bad a a reason to hatebut she wont even chance itits like the only thing tearing us apart, is fateso i sit and ask myself"now what will you do?""she doesnt even want you dre""who will confide in you?""why do your risk love""the consequences are tough"the only way she can feel not guiltyis by treating me so roughnow you made me this waylook at what you've donethis time I will stand in front of you,i won't get scared and runi won't even think twiceto glance back to take a second looki could have given you everything you wantedbut you only wanted what you tookyou pushed me awaynow i am left alone in your pastsomething i wish to love and buildwill never ever get a chance to lastWritten By Andraeahnlus Oniexerxes LegacyInspired By Elena E.
is this what goodbyes are supposed to bei really considered you as a friendbut I never felt I was truely yoursso i guess this is the end.i wish we could reach furtherbut why arent we so strong;to convince ourselvesthat what we are doing isnt wrong.I'm different from you as you saidnot quite something i understoodthats why i hope if I tell you goodbyethat it won't be for good.If I do fall for you once more,would the old wounds reappear?i can’t stand the pain.being hurt again is one of my worst feari do not know why we have to be like thisi really wish we did notbut the way this has been goingits invain giving it all that i have goteverything you tend to do hurts meand it seems like you don't even careI don't know why, I just lay and cryand hope when i awake i wont be hereits clear you don't need meand that's how I know whythese words are the ones I have to speak-i love you, but goodbye.Written By Andraeahnlus Oniexerxes LegacyInspired By Priyanka S.U.
this is for the greatest personthat I have ever knownbeing around you for so longand i am still feeling so alonelook how we started outand i thought the friendship had endbut then you came back aroundand now we are more than best of friendswith you i am so happyyou keep my heart contenti tell you that i love youbut truthfully- to what extent?i can't seem to stop my loveand how I feel for youi try so hard to deny this feeling at nightand I don't know what to doi try to lie to myselfbut when i see your face I cant believe"what would happen to my babygurl,if one day i should just leave"i promised i would never againlet someone take my heartand here i am wanting so much of youhating that we're aparteveryday u are in my thoughtsn every night you're in my dreamsi can't believe what's happening to usis this really what it seems?i know you hopenot to risk us and lose being friendsbut i am asking you sincerelyif it's a rule you''ll bend.to take a chance to know meto let me share it alland maybe one day very soonfor me one day u will fallcuz the friendship we now haveis something that i hope to never missbut maybe once if we go furtherwe will find eternal happinessi love how when we r talkingi can always make u smilebut do I really have to wait forever for you to be inlove with me?hmmn i guess I will have to wait awhile.i believe time will reveal,what truly lies aheadbut always remember meand what I have always saidmeeting you has changed my lifeand I really love you so,and the feelings I feel for youi am never-ever letting goremember me alwaysand I will do tooi will always love you babeand think of me and youi will never hurt you babyi promise......for as long as i livei know you are used to alot morebut this love for now is all i have to giveits just really cherish u my loveso much i just dont know what to doand i am sorry how i make you feelas if there is something wrong with youi guess there is nothing more for me to provenothing left for me to sayi just really want you to fall inlove with me....just.........inlove .......somedayWritten By Andraeahnlus Oniexerxes Legacy
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i never knew i would find sum1who is more than just a friendsum1 i plan to love foreveruntil the very endits hard to describe in wordsthe way i truely feelits like i can't live without youso i guess this love is reali hope to shun these feelingsthough I am not sure if I should trybecause this is best thing I've ever feltbut the immence happiness makes me cryi think about you everydaythen i start to want you even morei would give up everything to be with youi have never felt like this beforeshould i climb the highest towerswim along the ocean floorcrawl over broken glass for youwould you demand that i do more?just to prove how much i love youto make you understandhow much i long for 1 kissor the simplest touch of your handto show you how much i need youin each and every wayto hear you say i love you drewould take my breath awayit would take away my painand all my haunting fearjust to know that you love meand will always be herewould you love me foreverand mend my broken heartare you willing to piece togetherwat others tore apart?you are the girl of my dreamsand i dont want any otheryou are my one true love babyand i want us to be togethereven though the circumstances may stop mefrom actually being with youat times it means nothing cause-it wont stop me from loving youits a deep feeling insidei cant seem to controlits like you have the other half of my bodymy heart and my souli am wishing for your kissesand i long for your touchi hope you fell the same wayand im not asking for too mucham i asking for wishesthat can never quite come trueis my heart my greatest faultcause i cant stop loving youi must ask of one small thingbefore a serious relationship startsplease dont hurt me babyi cant live through another broken heart.Written By Andraeahnlus Oniexerxes Legacy