There is a great deal of depression that has overtaken my soul,It floods deep within, into every inch that makes me whole.I wonder and worry of thought throughout the day,What is to come, to my dismay.As a flood of tears pour out of me in all my expressions, more and more comes, more and more depression.I assure myself everything is ok!But who am I fooling?Then I burst into a spirit of rage.I have questions, and there are answers.But I'm afraid and much too weak,When I try to explain,I hear I'm hearing wrong and need to be meek.But this is how I feel, there's no wrong or right,But as I battle with myself, I always lose the fight.I feel intimidated sometimes by others,But as I said "This is how I feel"The pain in me is very real.I lose control, my thought go wild,and here I am only a child.If only you knew what I thought,If only you knew what I fought.I need my thoughts held captive
She is lonelyEven though you can't tellShe is reaching outFor what, she doesn't knowShe will continue to sit in silenceAnd hope that someone may stumble acrossHer and all of her emptinessBut they only hope that they do it in timeOtherwise she will have drifted too farAnd she may let goOf whatever grasp of the world she hasAs she slowly fades out of the lives of everyoneNearly unnoticed.
looking back on the time and the placeseing that childs innocent faceknowing that things are,nt as they appearfor inside she cries silent tearsdeep inside she is filled with painshe feels dirty and full of shameinnocence lost at a very young agelocked this child in a pain filled cagethere is no freedon or escapefrom the fact that this child was rapedwhile the guilty man is roaming freethis child is sentenced to eternityeternity locked away with all this shameshe cant help but she feel she was to blameeven though common sence says it was not her faultshe cant seem to help having these thoughtswhat if,s keep running through her mindshe keeps going back to these moments in timeis ther nothing she could have done??why didnt she scream or at least try to run.fear kept her frozen to the spotwhile this grown man did what he should notshame and fear made her keep the silencekept her from telling anyone about the violencethe thing that is shocking beyound beliefis that this child can never get any reliefnow she is in a prison with no gatethis man.....he sealed her fate
even though i seem quit and shyi have the strength inside of me to say goodbyei found a friend had always been a liei was heartbroken but i realisei had the stength to say goodbyeeven though somebody precious to me has diedalthough my heart is stilll crying,give me timei will have the stength to say goodbyewhen my soul is lost and i want to cryover time i shall healfor i know that i still have the strength inside me to say goodbye
i was just looking at my profile its been exactly a year today i signed up on here...i guess this is just a note to myself really.when i first signed up i was in a bad place..i had to come away from hear 4 a while it made me sadder when i looged on and saw how bad things felt wen written in back on white you see everything on my profiles true..there not just poems there storys of my life,of how things were things are not better for me just yet but at least now i know i have strengh..i got threw this year..1 of the toughest yet,the abuse,losing my child,making the worst desisions i have ever made..i can learn now i guess i can grow,im gratefull im stilll hear and surprised i thought i was gonna kill myself at 1 point i thought i wasnt strong enough deep down im proud of myself little by little i can rebuild my life all tho the bad things will never go away the pain will start to fade away i know im ready to give it anuva try
today felels to hard for meas i sit and look at this screen,warm tears streaming down my cheeks..how can something warm come from a heart so cold?today i feel the depression seeping back into me,everythings turned greyi feel this immense burning in my chest it feels like its desperate to escape,it ripps open my throat disguised as a screami want to die so much right now,but i have to much to live for.im scared i wont get through tonight
your out of my lifeit hurt so much at first but now im alrightiv decided not to listen to your lies anymore,its overits through,iv closed the doorso many times i let you play me for a fool.at first you were a good person,but now your just cruelyou told me to wait and one day we would be togetherbut im moving on with my life..i cant wait forever.hopefully one day youl find out it isnt nice to find the one you love being with someone else each nighti must admit the times we spent together were great,but now youve grown into something i can only hate! goodbye richard,im giving up on us
silence builds an awfull wreckage of a girlit feeds on lonliness and creates a voidgrey shaddows haunt torment and torturea teenager is stricken and destroyedthere is no sign of laughter or happiness herethis girl has thrown in the towel todaysomber,moods decay her soulit is futile to hope and dream and prayemptiness builds a home in this womenin this girl,this child where hollows have breda deepening sea of nothingness,consumesand eats away at every connecting threadconfusion feeds like a savage inside herleaving nothing considerd worthy to remaindestined to walk through life less ordinaryalone,exiled,different and distained
leave me alone when im not at homeor if im busy and i dont answer my phoneif i dont want to be bothered or disturbedcontinuous calls and texts,only makes me perturbed"why didnt u call"is the message i hearif i wanted to talk to you,i would have called dearyour vioce is annoyingyour words are just dumbyou want to reach my heart,ummmm my feelings are numbyou speak loud,yet u say nothing,your words are empty and voideach minute that passes,im more deeply annoyedyou can`t reach me when you call?cant u take a hint?or a clue?if i didnt call you back its cuz i didnt want to talk to you!just leave me alone,no mail message or phoneif not forwarded a number,then to you its unknownsmoke signals,hand gestures,signs on the wallall saying just leave me alonedo not disturbno more phone ringing boy you working on my last nerve
this lies become a part of mefor months iv played this gameacting like it doesnt hurteach time i hear his nameignoring whats inside of mepretendind iv moved onas if the feelings i once hadfor him are somehow gonespending each and everydaywith happiness and laughsforgetting all our memoriesavoiding photographsbut last night when i saw himfor the first time since he leftmy heart stopped for a moment..i couldnt catch my breathwhen suddently it hit meas the tears started to flowthat even after all this time...i just cant let him go..
people always have this to saythat the distance between us will make my love drift awayif out of sight you have to stayout of mind it will be fine one dayfor me i know my love will never swayno matter how many miles between us laywithout you near the days may be greybut this love inside makes me feel ok.love isnt always as flimsey as they portraybecause when absence comes into playmy heart is simply growing stronger wiyhout delayi know it does because i think of you everyday
