lonely in love

Why must I love the one I cannot have? Why must I feel what I cannot share? I fell in love with her way too soon, Now I'm hurting even more, I don't know what to do, We cannot be together, No matter how much we try. Every things such a mess.. Why don't they want us to be together? If its what we want, Should anything else really matter? Sitting alone and thinking what can I do? And realizing that there is nothing that can be done, Everything that we have tried wont work out, Has fate made it clear, That its just not meant to be? No matter how much I do want it to be.. Or are we just giving in way too easily? We are both hurting. And having another broken heart That will either mend, Or scar us externally. Written by lonely in love Submitted by lonely in love

#untitled

I put a mask on everyday, pretending to be okay. hiding my pain behind laughter, telling jokes and smiling, when really inside I'm dying, I'm broken into pieces, shattered and lost, I cant help but to be sad and miserable, I'm just holding back the tears, so everyone will leave me alone, but one day I shall break, and this mask will fade away, I cant keep this act up forever, its too hard, pretending I'm fine. when inside I'm screaming, and crying, and hurting deeper than I thought I would ever know. why am I hurting so much? when I didn't do anything wrong. when can I cry and not have a reason? never, cause everyone will want to know my story. when will my pieces be picked back up? I hope soon by the only person that can. when will I be put back together? anytime soon would be fine, I don't know how much longer I can keep this up. so come back to me, I shall wait for you endlessly. ©Amber Gomez Written by lonely in love Submitted by lonely in love

I hate the way you dress. I hate the way you walk. I hate the way you talk. I hate the way you smile.I hate the way you laugh. I hate the way you cry. I hate the way your sensitive. I hate how you have feelings. I hate your ugly body. I hate your ugly hair. I hate your stupid ugly face. I hate how your a disgrace I hate how stupid you are. I hate the way people stare at you. I hate you for everything you are. I hate every detail that makes you up. I hate what you have become. She is so little and fragile, But I hate her so f*cking much. I wish she would die. This person I hate more than Anyone in the whole entire world. This person is looking at me in the mirror. THhis person is me! Written by lonely in love Submitted by lonely in love

When will this jealousy go away, Why can't I be normal Why does it bother me. Maybe because you comment other girls Saying they look hott and kute. Checking them out when you are with me, But I just turn the other way, I look happy and smile, But on the inside I'm crying, Crying from being insecure Thinking I'm not good enough. That I'm the ugliest person you have ever seen, Because if I wasn't Then why would you want to check the other girls out? I don't do that "cause I'm with you And your the only person I ever wanna be with. Confused and scared, Am I the one you want, Or am I the one you just want to drop? Written by lonely in love Submitted by lonely in love

#bother

I point the finger at you Knowing your the one to blame, I cry everyday thinking of what you did It replays over and over in my head It's like a bad movie that I hate to see. This sh*t is driving me crazy, I don't know what to do, But I can't believe you did this to me, You say you love me all the time, But then why did you do this to me? I would never ever hurt you, I asked you millions of times why? But you couldn't come up with an answer All you could say is I don't know I'm stupid. But the pain isn't going away, It's just getting much deeper, I love you with everything, But I'm not sure if I forgive you. It's going to take a while to trust you Because you did this with my friend. But some friend she is, I just can't believe everything that is happening I thought we were great, I guess I'm the mistake, I hate myself I'm so unloved. And a pathetic excuse for a human, I just wanna die So pull the trigger And pull it fast. Take me away already, No one will miss me And notice that I'm gone. Good-bye world I hate you! Amber Gomez. Written by lonely in love Submitted by lonely in love

#myself

I cry, I don't know why. I shouldn't care that you talk to her, but it seems as if it hurts me any ways. I know I'm a bit jealous. but I cant help myself. I just don't want you to get taken away from me so jealousy is what happens to me. you are really good friends with her, but it somehow seems as if you wanna be with her. I know I think wrong sometimes but why do I feel so unloved? Written by lonely in love Submitted by lonely in love

#unloved

I'll talk more Just don't leave me I'll never do anything wrong to hurt you I'm not be the one That takes your breath away I may not be your Stunningly beautiful ex-girlfriend. I'm sorry our conversation isn't great I guess I'm just the f*cken mistake My words cannot express How much I love you. How much I hurt. All I can say is just don't leave me And when we are on this little break Don't go to other girls Nor go to your ex. Just please don't forget about me Written by lonely in love Submitted by lonely in love

#forget, #about

I'm hurt. Cause I'm not sh*t. I mean nothing to you. I'm worthless and a Selfish sensitive crying b*tch. Will someone just please Put a bullet to my head. So I can fall ad lay to Rest in my f*cken bed. Or will someone just Kill me instantly. By the way I feel now I don't care what happens to me. Part of me is sad. Part of me is confused. Either way I just wanna cry. Curl up in a ball and Die! Die! Die! Written by lonely in love Submitted by lonely in love

I feel like sh*t I'm not good enough to be with you I'm the one that Can't make you laugh I'm the one that you feel isn't there for you I'm so insecure about not pleasing you I'm sorry that I'm not your ex I'm the one that can't make you happy I'm sorry for all that I can't do I guess I'm just a complete waste I'm self-concious with an ugly face Written by lonely in love Submitted by lonely in love

#sorry

You make me feel like sh*t You pick her over me And that's not how its supposed to work You're with me and she is just a friend. Why can't you stop and see what you're doing to me I'm breaking down slowly and softly. Killing my insides, Which you do very well. There are times when I think you don't even love me Cause your too busy thinking of her. You lie to me about texting her, But I have seen my proof. What the hell am I supposed to do? Just sit here and take everything you throw at me? Well I can't take it forever I want our relationship to be like it never existed You can't love us both. And I know you would pick her over me in an instant. If you love me the way you say you do, Then why don't you show me? I think it's too late for that. Have fun with your new girlfriend. My heart will die, As I say goodbye. Written by lonely in love Submitted by lonely in love

Your lying to me and I know it but yet you are the one that doesn't know what I know I can't tell you what I know cause I promised to keep it a secret your messed up for trying to do this to me I would never think about cheating on you. So why are you gonna be sneaky and try? But if cheating is what you want and it makes you happy then go for it, but I won't be here to take it if you really loved me and cared like you say you do then why you gonna try and mess things up? We don't argue we don't fight what's so good about hurting me? Does that make you happy? To see me sad. I hope not. But what ever the other girl has to offer I can't possibly have cause if I did you wouldn't be going behind my back have fun cheating on me and have fun breaking my heart I'll try and be strong as I wave goodbye with tissues in each hand you can't be forgiven for breaking my heart. Written by lonely in love Submitted by lonely in love

#lying

Why is it that I can see you but you can’t see me how can I touch every inch of your body but you can’t even touch me.How can I smell your cologne but you can’t smell the slightest perfume I wear how come I can hear you sing out the window as you look up into the sky but when I scream it doesn't even hit you as if I am some sort of mime trapped inside of a box I walk over to the mirror as tears fill my eyes thinking to myself as I that gross looking I look at my mirror reflection what I see isn't normal and freaks me out I get a tissue to dry my eyes rid them of the tears that I had shed looking once again at my mirror reflection realizing that I am now dead! Written by lonely in love Submitted by lonely in love