Submitted by Kelsey
He came into my life like a broken record, He was so insecure, so down, and always stoned. I wanted to show him that I cared and for him to know that he was loved but things didn’t work out that way, we fought constantly and when we separated all I got was the silent treatment. We went out, then broke up and it was a constant thing like a broken record skipping because it’s cracked down the middle. I knew he loved me and I was the only thing in his life that he cared about other then his brother and his weed. That was the problem that messed up everything we had, I was his second priority, never his first, its like he woke up stoned, he was never sober and as hard as it was for me I hung in there. I loved him but I didn’t love him the way he wanted me to. I wasn’t being fair to myself or to him but really he was never being fair to me either because he was never there when I needed him. Knowing that he cared so much for me like no one else, he was my security, my comfort and I knew if I had problems with someone else I could run back to him just as easy and he would take me back. I had never been in a situation such as that but I didn’t know what to do with myself I think I was just lost and I wanted someone to love me for who I am, instead of getting screwed over every time with some other person. I fell for a guy that screwed me over badly and I didn’t know what to do anymore and that’s when I ran back to him. We went out again, and then we didn’t see enough of each other so I had to call if off again. Now a couple months later he is continuously giving me the silent treatment once again, and I don’t know if it is he don’t want to talk to me or he don’t want me around because He loves me too much that he cant bear to be around me unless were together or he wants a change. I have no clue what he wants, and as corny as this sounds I don’t know what I want either. Maybe this was supposed to happen but I don’t know because even though this guy treated me like I was an angel, I always knew he was never good enough for me but deep down I wanted him to be and I wanted to love him the way he loved me. I don’t know what to do I’m so confused and none of my friends will talk to me or let me vent how I truly feel, I have no one to listen or care and knowing that he’s not there no more for me to run to leads me nowhere.