I just don't know anymore...I just don't care. My name is Drek, so...there.
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That's Where We Are
I looked in the mirror
Seeing through tears of horror
Looking for my heart, shattered on the floor.
And I think for a minute about surrendering
Maybe I’m wrong in my rendering
But even if I am wrong
I won’t move along
{Chorus #1}
I will not give it up
No I won’t give in
When there’s still a chance
Of us again
I will not rest
When I know we’re not through
I only hope again
To see me and you.
So at night I lay down
In the bed we made together
No matter how hard I try
It still feels like leather
So I sit up and I read the note
The simple things that we wrote
Small little words like “I love you” and “good-bye”
Why did we ever let this die?
{Chorus #2}
I will not give up
Nor will I give in
When there is a chance
To be US again
When I know there that we aren’t through
All I hope to see is you with me and me with you.
Someday. I hope to see you walk through that door
And make me feel the way you always did before
When I’ve lost my way and a part of me
I know your by my side, that is plain to see
But you’re not where I need you most
In my embrace
When you’re there maybe then I’ll know
I can escape this place.
(Repeat Chorus #1)
(Repeat Chorus #2)
The mirror is shattered
And the bed sheets, tattered
But at least I know what I see
You’re in my arms…the way life should be.
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Everytime you're near
My heart begins to thump
Now it's crystal-clear
Why it beings to jump
When I hear your voice
I feel like I can't speak
And when I feel your touch
Oh how my knees go weak
When I feel you laying by my side
It seems these feelings
I can not hide
There is a simple word
It is only four letters long
There is a simple word
But to me it like a song
Love
It does not need critique
Love
Simple because it is uniqe
Love
Is quite like you and me
Because in love
We will always be...
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The Days Of Old
It is like a thunderstorm rages in my brain
And my eyes let out the rain
These tears aren’t warm…but they are full of pains
These tears are cold like the ice in my veins
They run cold rivers down my face
It is like an artic mist
Freezing my lips that long to be kissed
My heart as well is frozen
Because I’m not the one you’ve chosen
My thoughts are cold as ice
You did the deed, I pay the price
My blood runs cold
Because I’m still in love, with the days of old.
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Drunken Dreams
And Knowing This Guilt
This Pounding In My Head Is The Source
There Is So Much Pain That Has Been BuiltThese Hand Of Mine That Feel So Coarse
So I’m Ready To Take The Bottle For A Tilt
(Chorus)
It’s A Sickly Sweet Symphony of Fears
And It Seem That You Are Drowning In A Sea Full Of Tears
All Of These Visions Becoming Clear Along With The Screams
In This World Of Sober Sights And Drunken Dreams
I Haven’t Dropped The Ball
And My Speech Isn’t Slurred
I Haven’t Let You Fall
And My Thoughts Of You Aren’t Blurred
This Pounding In My Head
And This Beating In My Heart
Tells Me That I’m Not Dead
And I’m Not Torn Apart
(Chorus)
Don’t Shut Me Down
Don’t Let Me Feel Cold A Frost
In My Sea Of Tears….Don’t Let Me Drown
To This Symphony of Fear…Let My Hearing Be Lost
My Sights Are Sober and Clear
But Dreams Are Drunk
Though My Thoughts Are Full Of Cheer
My Dreams Seem To Lack All Of Their Spunk
(Chorus X2)
Written by Derek Jordan “Ace” Sytsma
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Contemplating on something I need to decide
Should I show the real me
Or continue to hide?
Should I open up and let people see
That I’m thinking of all of those nights I would lay and cry
While my life lacked its glee
That I’m remembering all of my feelings I would try to deny
When I didn’t know who to be.
That I’m concentrating on the times I would ask why
And all of the times I questioned if I was free
That I’m wondering if it mattered that I would try
Or if “try” is just a word of debris
And now I’m questioning so many things while I look to the sky
I see the moon and howl in a sort of guarantee
That I won’t say fair well or goodbye
And this is something I do decree
But the moon just glows down on me and listens, that is its reply
Perhaps because it knows the real me.
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You Seem to Find The Dark
Never Find The Light
Look For The Sun
Not The The Moon
You Should Look For These Bloodshot Eyes
They Belong To Your Gloom
Look For The One Who Will Hold You Through The Coldest Of Nights
Look For The One Who, In Your Name, Stands and Fights.
Look For The One Who Lives For Your Next Word
The One Who Would Die To Give You A Last Breath
I Hope I Am All Of This
I Hope I Am The One Whom You Miss
Look Into To The Night
And I Pray To God I'm Right
That I Am The Bloodshot Eyes
That Tell No Lies
When The Warm, But Hurt Voice Groans
And The Words Come Out As Moans
Of I Still Love You and Forlorn Hope
This Is Why I Sit and Mope
Know That I Stand Up For Your Name
I Never Let It Fall To Shame
Know That I Wish To Fix The Damage Done
And This Is Why People Say That I'm
That One
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Tell my heart to last longer
Tell my will to be stronger
Tell my mind to stop thinking
About what was and what could have been
Tell my ears to start to listen
Tell me to have a better plan
But don’t ever tell me to be a better man
I tried my best
But best just won’t do
Because my best didn’t keep you
Don’t tell me to care more
Don’t tell me to hold open the door
Don’t tell me to want it worse
This is not something someone can coerce
Tell me you want to be a friend
Tell you want what we had to mend
But don’t tell me you love me
Don’t feed me another lie
Because if you loved me
You wouldn’t have let “us” die.
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(Chorus)
Let me take you on this emotional roller coaster
Let me take you for this emotional ride
Let me take you on this emotional roller coaster
Let me take you for an emotional stride*X2 always*
A corkscrew and a loopdeloop
Of a broken heart
A corkscrew and loopdeloop
Tearing us apart
A corkscrew and loopdeloop
And a forgotten name
A corkscrew and loopdeloop
So whose to blame?
(Chorus X2)
A corkscrew and loopdeloop
Rewind the ride
A corkscrew and loopdeloop
No where to hid
A corkscrew and loopdeloop
Have you forgiven me yet?
A corkscrew and loopdeloop
That’s a choice you won’t regret
(Chorus X2)
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Baby you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
We're in heaven
Oh, thinkin' about our younger years
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free
Now nothing can take you away from me
We've been down that road before
That's over now
You keep me comin' back for more
Baby you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And lovin' is all that I need
And I'm finally there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see,
We're in heaven
We're in heaven
Now nothing can change what you mean to me
There's a lot that I could say
But just hold me now
Cause our love will light the way
Baby you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And lovin' is all that I need
And I'm finally there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see,
We're in heaven
Now our dreams are comin' true
Through the good times and the bad
I'll be standing there by you
We're in heaven
And your loving is all that I need
When I'm finally there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
We're in Heaven.
((This is for you baby-girl...I love you Ashley,))
Written by D.J. Sammy
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Take these roses all from me
Let me live, let me be
For a little while
Let my eyes,
See everything and nothing in their time
I do not mind
Who've guess I'd learn
To let the walls around me burn
Light up the hillside
My words, I ate them for so long and nothing changed
It was just the same
And I don't know if you see me
But I can tell you your face is clear
I will see you...
Forever
Forever
I will see you
Forever
Forever
Call me close once again
Call me teacher, call me friend
Just like the first time
Call my name, it echos around me in this room
Its all you
I don't know if you hear me there
But it's dark so no one cares
I will hear you...
Forever
Forever
I will hear you
Forever
Forever
I wanted you to be everything to me
Now I've got to learn to carry on
I know I cannot hide this emptiness inside
But nothing is the same since you've gone
Send me letters from above
Send me strength, send me love
Such sweet love
Sing me songs that echo in my head and in my heart
That's where you are
And I don't know if you feel me here
I can tell you one thing that's clear
I will feel you...
Forever
Forever
I will feel you
Forever
Forever
I will hear you
Forever
Forever
I will see you
Forever
Forever
Take these roses all from me
Let me live, let me be
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I drown in the ocean that is our love
I breath the air that is our passion
Forever
I dream the sweet dream that is our lives
I feel the zephyr that is your pressence
Forever
Forever is the only word for these feelings
I love this feeling, this ecstacy that is us
I will feel this
Forever...
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Look at this photograph,
everytime I do it makes me laugh.
How did our eyes get so red,
and what the hell is on Joey's head.
And this is where I grew up,
I think the present owner fixed it up.
I never knew we ever went without,
the second florr was high for sneaking out.
And this is where I went to school,
most of the time had better things to do.
Criminal record says I broke in twice,
I must have done it half a dozen times.
I wonder if its too late,
should I go back and try to graduate.
Life's better now than it was back then,
if I was them I wouldn't let me in!
Oh oh oh... Oh God I!
(Chorus)
Every memory of lookin' out the back door,
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor,
It's hard to say it, time to say it,
Good-bye good-bye.
Every memory of walkin' out the front door,
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for,
It's hard to say it, time to say it,
Good-bye good-bye.
We used to listen to the radio,
and sing along to every song we'd know.
We said someday we'd find out how it feels,
to sing to more than just the steering wheel.
Kim's the first girl I kissed,
I was so nervous that I nearly missed.
She's had a couple of kids since then,
I haven't seen her since god knows when!
Oh oh oh... Oh God I!
(Chorus)
Every memory of lookin' out the back door,
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor,
It's hard to say it, time to say it,
Good-bye good-bye.
Every memory of walkin' out the front door,
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for,
It's hard to say it, time to say it,
Good-bye good-bye.
(Bridge)
I miss that town,
I can't believe it,
So hard to stay,
So hard to leave it.
If I could relive those days,
I know the one thing that would never change.
(Chorus)
Every memory of lookin' out the back door,
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor,
It's hard to say it, time to say it,
Good-bye good-bye.
Every memory of walkin' out the front door,
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for,
It's hard to say it, time to say it,
Good-bye good-bye.
Look at this photograph,
everytime I do it makes me laugh.
Everytime I do it makes me...
Written by Drek
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