Take a deep breath
close my eyes.
Try not to remember how he felt between my thighs.
His strong chiseled body gleaming in the moon's light.
I notice my pulse begin to rise
I fight with all my might to remain in control though I've gone amiss
Remembering his soft touch
His supple kiss.
Inhale slowly.
Deeply exhale.
(TO THE TUNE OF GEORGE HARRISON'S SOMETHING)
SOMETHING IN THE WAY HOW GOD MOVES
MAKES ME FEEL SAFE LIKE NO OTHER
SOMETHING IN THE WAY HOW GOD MOVES ME
MAKES ME FALL ON MY KNEES AND BOW
AND WORSHIP HIM HERE AND NOW
SOMETHING IN THE WAY HOW GOD MOVES
FULFILLS ME UNLIKE ANY OTHER
SOMETHING IN THE WAY HOW GOD LOVES ME
MAKES ME FALL ON MY KNEES AND BOW
AND WORSHIP HIM HERE AND NOW
YOU’RE ASKING ME HOW CAN YOU KNOW?
DEEP IN MY HEART THAT’S HOW I KNOW!
JUST BELIEVE THEN YOU WILL KNOW
JUST BELIEVE THEN YOUR FAITH WILL GROW
SOMETHING IN THE WAY HOW GOD KNOWS
ALL MY TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS
SOMETHING IN THE WAY HOW GOD LOVES ME
MAKES ME FALL ON MY KNEES AND BOW
AND WORSHIP HIM HERE AND NOW!
OH LORD MY GODMY HEART IS FULL AND I GIVE YOU PRAISEFOR YOU HAVE GIVEN METHE STRENGTH TO MAKE IT THROUGH LATTER DAYSHELP ME TO BE HUMBLE, OH MIGHTY GODTHE CREATOR OF HEAVEN AND EARTH!FOR YOU HAVE GIVEN ME NEW LIFEAND PROVIDED ME A REBIRTHFOR THY MERCY IS GREAT ABOVEAND IT REACHES HERE BELOWGRANT ME THE CHANCE TO SAYIN MY VERY OWN WAYJUST HOW GRATEFUL I WILL BEWHEN I GET THE CHANCE TO WALK AGAIN WITH THEE!OH JESUS CHRISTYOU BLESSED ME WITH YOUR HOLY LOVEAND HOW CAN I REPAYTHE DEBT YOU PAID JUST WITH YOUR BLOOD?AND I'LL REMEMBER ALL YOUR WORDSTHAT YOU BURNED WITHIN MY HEARTAND I'LL REMEMBER HOW YOU LOVED MERIGHT FROM THE VERY STARTFOR THY MERCY IS GREAT ABOVEAND IT REACHES HERE BELOWGRANT ME THE CHANCE TO SAYIN MY VERY OWN WAYJUST HOW GRATEFUL I WILL BEWHEN I GET THE CHANCE TO WALK AGAIN WITH THEE!
IF I CLOSED MY EYES NOWJUST TO IMAGINE THAT YOU'RE IN MY LIFE AGAINI WOULD CLOSE MY EYES FOREVERJUST TO SEE THAT WE'RE TOGETHERAND THIS TIME I KNOW THE DREAM WILL NEVER END!WOULD YOU TRULY LOVEIF YOU KNEW I WAS NOT THE GIRL YOU SEEWOULD YOU TURN YOUR LOVE ASIDEAND RUN AWAY AND HIDE OR WOULD YOU MAKE ME OUT THE GIRL YOU'D WANT ME TO BEYET STILL I LOVE YOU UNCONDITIONALLY.I CAN BE THERE UNCONDITIONALLYCAN YOU LOVE ME UNCONDITIONALLY?WE WERE JUST TWO STRANGERSWHO DECIDED NOT TO LIVE OUR LIFES ALONESO WE TOOK A CRAZY CHANCEAND STARTED THIS ROMANCENEVER REALIZING THIS ROAD WOULD LEAD US HOMEAND EVEN THOUGH THERE'S PROBLEMSWE WERE NEVER PROMISED A SHORT AND EASY RIDEBUT IF WE LOOK UP TO THE SUNAND LIVE OUR LIVES AS ONETHEN ALL OUR FEARS AND WORRIES WILL SUBSIDEYET STILL I LOVE YOU UNCONDITIONALLY.I CAN BE THERE UNCONDITIONALLYCAN YOU LOVE ME UNCONDITIONALLY?
SEEMS ALL I HAD WERE BROKEN PROMISESSEEMS ALL I HAD WERE EMPTY WORDS THAT SAIDAND ALL THE WORDS THAT SCREAM INSIDE MY HEADAND ALL THE WHILE I'M TAKING YOU TO BEDSOMETHING DIFFERENT FAR FROM OUR IMAGINATIONTHAT WE BOTH KNEW, BETWEEN ME AND YOUINFATUATION, SWEET TABOOBUT WHAT WE THOUGHT WAS LOVEWASN'T TRUEWHAT DO I DO WITH ALL THE MEMORIESWHAT DO I DO WITH THE WORDS YOU SAID TO MEWHAT DO I DO WHEN I'M COLD AND ALL ALONEWHAT DO I DO WITH THIS HOUSE THAT'S NOT A HOMEITS SOMETHING DIFFERENTFAR FROM OUR IMAGINATIONTHAT WE BOTH KNEW BETWEEN ME AND YOUINFATUATION, SWEET TABOOSINCE WHAT WE THOUGHT WAS LOVEWASN'T TRUEAND NOW YOUR GONE AND THE WALLS ARE COLD AND BAREAND NOW YOUR GONE AND I WONDER IF YOU CAREDAND NOW YOUR GONE AND I'M FILLED WITH MIXED RELIEFAND NOW YOUR GONE AND THERE'S NOTHING LEFT BUT GRIEFSO MUCH SOMETHING DIFFERENTFAR FROM OUR IMAGINATIONTHAT WE BOTH KNEW BETWEEN ME AND YOUINFATUATION, SWEET TABOOBECAUSE WHAT WE THOUGHT WAS LOVEWASN'T TRUE
it seems as if just yesterday you were completely minei filled your thoughts, your every move and occupied your timeI was your all, you were my joy, our lives were so completelove was our drug, we were addicted in totality.but now the addiction has grown deadly therefore release me.I do not want to yearn for your touch in the middle of the nightI do not want to wander who is holding you ever so tighti do not want to remember the sweet sound of your labored breathsof how wonderful it felt lying in your arms after being taken to my depthsor wishing I was lying in your arms, relaxing so peacefullythese thoughts are nothing but painful deadly longings therefore release meRelease me from the knowledge that there is still a sparkRelease me from your face that I see behind my eyelids in the darkRelease me from the constant terror of never hearing your voiceor that I am not a priority, not the second or first choice.Your love is confusing and tantalizing, engulfing me with agonyI cannot do this alone therefore release me.
