Britni Edmunds

Secrets and lies Weave and spun Can you see it through my eyes? Can you see that I am done?I hate the life I live I have no air to breath All the lies that I give Are making me grieve I hurt on the inside As well as out I gave away my pride I let it all out I can't believe it I cried for you? I just don't get it Can this all be true? What have I done? What's happened to me? I just can't believe what I've begun Can this really be? The hate is gone for you I now only hate myself I wish this were not true Loving yourself Is what we're supposed to do I hate the truth that I can never share Give in and tell? Do I dare? Should I tell the truth? Just this once No, that's just the youth In me, I can't, not even once Too late, it's done I told, but only one! Let me explain, before you scream I thought I would gain, maybe a new dream You were never to find out Please believe me It was my only way out I just needed one to see me For you once did, and I cried I turned it into a secret And kept it, only to hide our lie I admit, It hurts me deep I just wish that you would quit It's getting too steep I can't stand anymore For I fell off my rock I wish that I weren't such a wh*re I don't want me outlined in chalk Do you understand? I'm lost in my own mind I don't have a plan To get me out this time I am so ashamed of my truth I sit alone now Wasting all of my youth And why? I don't know. Written by Britni Edmunds Submitted by Britni Edmunds

#silence, #kills

As tears fall down my face I wonder why there is no place. No place for me to go No home for me to know Because in this world there is no love But the sweet sounds, of a cooing dove As I sit here on the porch I wish I could be torched For all the things I've caused It seems no one ever sees me bend the laws I am alone, scared lost and hurting Knowing nothing will ever stop my hurting I wish I could be whole again So full of love, life and laughter But to be full again, I must wait until after But to accomplish this I must think Think of a way to finally be fully complete To be complete, in this sad life I live Wishing and hoping, hoping and wishing I could find a real reason to the life I have only begun to live I have no feelings, no real memories at all So I sit here waiting, for myself to slip and fall I wish I could fall back far far Back to a time, before I got my scars The scars that blister my heart And make me want to depart Though I never will, for I am strong But even so, strong only lasts for so long For my heart has taken on too much In all the secretes and lies and such I wish I were still innocent, pure as gold For when to get what I wished, I just had to be bold When things were as simple as could be For all I had to do was just be me But now I have peen pulled in Into a place that I felt I had to begin To begin to be what I am not And as I began my new life, I realized my heart had also begun to harden and wrought And wroughting it is, a perfect heart, just wroughting away Even to this very seemingly, perfect day The things I do and the lifestyle I live Just pulls and tugs until I have nothing else to give When people ask me Why I need a reason to live? I say because I live for everyone else, and all I ever do is give, give, give. I give to them my heart, soul and all my love And everything else below and above Every year, day, and month, I wish and pray For that sweet, sweet day When all my troubles, problems, fears and all of my wishful tears All fade away, into distant memories of my childhood years. Written by Britni Edmunds Submitted by Britni Edmunds

#wishful, #tears

I want something but I wonder will I ever find exactly what I am looking for exactly what I need or find out what I am searching for so I will be able to find it, so I can stop the pain that is somewhere inside of me. stranggling me hurting me in a way that hurts so bad inside and no matter what I do it won't stop until I find...that something Written by Britni Edmunds Submitted by Britni Edmunds

#something

I want something but I wonder will I ever find exactly what I am looking for exactly what I need or find out what I am searching for so I will be able to find it, so I can stop the pain that is somewhere inside of me. stranggling me hurting me in a way that hurts so bad inside and no matter what I do it wont stop until I find...that something Written by Britni Edmunds Submitted by Britni Edmunds

#something

When I was crashed down to a low, I never allowed it to show, For me, it was like being pulled under the water, I was always gasping for air, Trying to find my way to the surface, But could not figure out which way was up, And no one around me ever noticed I even went under, Until I met you... Things began to turn around, I began to feel myself standing upright on the ground. I was alone, scared and lost and you pulled me back up out of the water, and into your arms, for no cost. Your eyes drew me in from the start, And with them you managed to win my heart. Now your the one that makes me smile and laugh until it hurts, and when your blue eyes look into mine I feel that I'm given worth. I have only respect and love for you, But never once did I say thank you. So thank you, and I love you Noah, with all my heart. Written by Britni Edmunds Submitted by Britni Edmunds

#until