I am broken, torn, lost and alone.Confused in this reality.Wishing for another.(I am also VERY MARRIED, and enjoying my life).I love photography ,and anything related to other wordly creatures and past religions, ancient cultures and forbidden sins.
Stare into my eyessee how I yearn for yousee the fire burning.Kiss me deeplydrink in my desiretaste my passion.Touch my bodyfeel it quiver at your touchfeel how it burns for you.Naked, bare, exposeda blank canvassleave your mark upon my soul.Skin on firealmost breathlesstake all of me.
In the begining, to me he's a strangerdark and mysterious, full of wondersmooth and suave, giving off an air of danger.He tells me of his desiresintimate things shared between loversmy interest in him sparking higher.We seem to know each other so wellthough we've just meteach of our lives our own personal hell.I'm sucked into his fantasy worldpassion, heat, fire, longingI'm no longer left alone and cold.I want to crawl in his skinrunning hot and deep within his veinswhat a delectable sin.Wrapping him around me like a cloakfeeling his maleness, heat and strengthheld forever in his arms of oak.
So many voices inside my headall fighting with each othertrying to command this vessel from within.Barely there, hardly ever seena small abused childhiding within the corners of my mind.Formed out of necessityhe's constantly on guardthere to protect the child from harm.From a past life she hailsspinning great tales of oldalways the most gentle loving soul.Forever on the prowlsearching for new preythe dominatrix waits for her next victim.Somewhere inside a switch is flippedinstant anger all consuming ragethe mighty beast dwells within.Just as quickly the switch is flipped againpain, sorrow and despairdrowning in salty tears.Each day a new beginingevery moment a constant battlenever knowing who's in control.
A bright full moon up highthe crashing waves of the rising tidethe man I love by my sidewe bathe in the ocean salty and coldtrying to be brave,daring and boldcalling forth powers and magic of oldhand in hand we walk back to the beachholding one another wishing for heatneither one able to speakthe druid stands surrounded by firearms outstretched the flames rising higherthe moon glowing brightersmeared with the blood of the freshly killed ramthe druid begins the incantation making marks in the sandancient magic springs forth broken from a damwe lay upon the fur covered stonethe druid walks away leaving us alonedisappearing in the mist no longer to roama new life is made this nightwhile holding each other tightmaking love till morning's light
Staring at the test on the counternot really believing my eyesI can't feel it yetbut there's a life growing inside of me.Created in a moment of lovepart of my husbandpart of meunique in it's own way.The weeks pass bymy body constantly changingmy hormones surgingfeeling the first flutter of movement.In complete awe of these first movementswanting my husband to share my joyhe places his hand on my swelling tummyeagerly awaiting his child's movements.My ankles are swollenmy shoes are too smallmy belly growing in sizeI'm running out of clothes that fit.Kidney shots to make you cryhiccups to make you laughplaying jump rope with the umbilical cordfeeling tiny hands and feet.A restless night in bedkicking daddy in the back from in my tummymy water breaksthe contractions begin.Rushing to the hospitalrunning red lightswaiting for the doctorwaiting for the pain to stop.Hours pass bythe pain becomes more intenseplease make it stopget this baby out.I'm almost therejust one more push they all cheerone more contraction one more pushthe baby's out its all done I'm now a mom.
Exhileration, fear, uncertaintywaiting for a signthree minutes of helltears of feartears of joylaughter inbetweenunbearable heartburnexcessive hurlingtoo many potty breaksfunky cravingsclothes wont fitemotional messreading up on bookstaking classesdesperately wishing for a manualmy time draws nearthe pains beginits time to go26 hours of the worst pain ever3 good hard pushes1 beautiful baby to hold
When I was just a little girlyou were my heroI was your greatest fan.You patched up my scraped kneeswiped my tearsand calmed my fears.You held your breathwith each new stepletting my try my wings.I crashed and burnedbut in time I learnedbecause of you.When I was a teenyou were my enemyI was your disappointment.You yelled and screamedI said things I didn't meanwe fought all the time.We said goodbyeI did my own thingtrying to fly with broken wings.Again I crashed and burnedbut this time I learned because of you.Now I have become a motheryou are the pastmy child the future.You've offered love and adviceI called you day and nightMom, am I doing this right?You helped me along always showing me the wayletting me soar on my outstretched wings.This time I did not crash and burnall this I have learnedbecause of you.
On a hot Summer's nightalone in my bedtangled in silken sheets.Bare skin exposedglowing by moonlightdamp with sweat.The witching hour strikesdarkness gets deeperdreams become reality.A mist takes shapeinfused with his essencethe man that haunts my dreams.He is everything malepower,virility,strengthanimal magnetisim.He is every consumate loverpassionate, tender, fierceMarquis de Sade reincarnated.He whispers in my ear of Tantric delightscaressing my bodysetting every nerve aflame.He licks my lower liptongue brushing past minedueling endlessly.He strips me of the silken sheetexposing my desiresleaving me wanton.Braced on sinewy muscled armshe slides between my thighspressing his throbbing manhood against my core.Flesh against fleshmy legs wrapped around his hipsmy nails raking bloody trails down his back.The softest kiss turns to delicate nibblingmy pulse beating between his teethpain turns to pleasure.We make love throughout the nightpassion rising higher and higherhim worshipping my body like an ancient diety.Breathing laboredstars collidethe heavens open.Soaring highfloating on cloudsdrifting back to earth.My midnight lover begins to shimmerfading into the nighthis glowing eyes the last of him to disappear.