We all have a mistake that we wish we never made,
one that changed our life in an instant
and left us with such intense overwhelming pain.
A love lost, never to be forgotten,
a hard lesson learned in our hearts, which we refer to often.
Throughout the years the constant what if's,
it's enough to drive you crazy, forced constantly to think of what you've possibly missed.
I did let go... but not soon enough, because I will forever have to deal with my mistake....the punishment,
losing your love.
So many thoughts running throughout my mind, ones that are shattering form moments left behind. Wishes and dreams just so... out of reach,a problem that exists with most, life's furious twist.
Temptations and pain come hand in hand, so be careful when the temptation tries to come between you and for what it is you stand!
Keep in mind the repercussions are altering,strictly because you yourself will forever be haunted....just that one choice, "I wish I could take it back, but now all I can do forever is look back, on what we had and what we once were, what WE could've been, you and me....not you and her.
I often find myself thinking of the past...thoughts of you, thoughts of us and precious moments I miss so much. I wonder where you areI wonder who your with,but most of all I wonder...I wonder if I am missed?
Do you have thoughts of mescattered inside your head, does something you see or hearremind you of me or something I once said?
I am truly sorry for the mistake I made,you could never comprehend how much, the pain inside comsumes me with just one thought, one memory... of you and our love.
I wake-up each morning and my thoughts are of you,I go to sleep each evening thinking of you to.Pure tortureI enflict upon myself,day in and day out the pain is constantly felt. Thoughts of what should've been constatly running down my cheek, remembering your touch, how much you loved meand the way you would just stop, and stare at me. This feeling is an overwhelming burdenI have forced myself to bear,but I relive the pain every momentwhen the day starts overand your still not there.
Standing in the shadows, desperetly trying to see the light,forcing myself to believe that out there is something...someone better,someone worth the fight.But how do I get around this, this feeling of overwhelming pain, when I know it wasn't my faultbecause you are the one crying and feeling the shame.How do I forget youand force myself to move on,it is impossible because I tourture myselfwith thoughts of youand what my life once was.