Will I forever stay?

So much pain I've put you through so much pain you've put me through the pain was just to great we lost control of what was real What was meant to be so I've lost you so I've lost myself a need to forgive is much greater then the need to forget but i shall forgive you i just don't know if you can bare to forgive me the need to say it in this poem needing to set my emotions free to let them fly high as the birds and yet i don't seem to have wings i do all this to try and live with myself but i cant i cant stand our reality it stings like a venomous poison of a black widow to mend with this is so hard yet bending it doesn't feel as bad help me deal with this i say but yet there's no reply the sorrow of my pain the sorrow of my foray towards you heart the needless nights of pain with your memories will i forever stay?

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