I'm sorry

Empty, numb cold all  alone

No one to talk to, not even on the phone

Time passes, feelings never fade

Emptiness grows, leaving life in the shade.

I'm numb im life less, im cold and weak

So much so, it hurts to speak

I'm afraid to trust, not allowed to live

Locked up in my home with nothing to give.

It's not your fault, I abused your trust

Let you down, fucked you over but by needs must.

I cant make this right, the damage is done.

But I miss you dearly my second mum

Stuck in the middle, you had to choose

I know that now, I was bound to loose

But fighting so much, against a few

Has left me weak and needing you.

I guess what I mean, or want to say

Is I miss you dearly in every way. 

I don't expect change, I just needed you to know. 

I love you .. . 

I'm so  sorry. . . I never meant to hurt you.

Xx