OK I’ve never spoken like this before but... I'm in a bit of a mess...
I have a boyfriend. I've been with him over 2 years...but the last few months I haven't been happy... I tried to end it with him twice; once, he got so upset.
I didn't have the heart to carry on, the other time my mom actually stopped me because she said she thought of him as a son, and would be angry, disappointed etc in me if I ended it... ever since then she's been really mad at me whenever I try and tell my boyfriend I’m not happy. This alone is driving me mad. Most people can see I’m not happy and keep asking why I can't do anything... but it's so confusing... I don’t want to hurt him, but I haven't been happy for a long time...
The second part is... I’m in love with someone else. And I know its love... I’ve loved him for over 7 months... he's one of my boyfriends' friends... we kind of clicked, but there's so much he doesn’t let anyone see, he's kind of... afraid to show feelings... but we get on, and he's let me see the other side of him now and again...the other times, we have such a good time together and I’ve heard he feels for me too - but I’m not sure... I tried to tell him once and it just went wrong - besides, I’m still technically with my boyfriend... I don't know what to do-I thought about ending it with my boyfriend then running away so my mom wouldn't be able to be mad at me…but it seems a bit drastic.
Any ideas? Thanks
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