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RUNNING MY MAMA CRAZY

MY MAMA TOLD ME WHILE I RUN THESE STREETS SHE CANT SLEEP. HER PHONE RING LATE AT NIGHT SHE THINK SOMETHING HAPPENDED TO ME. HER NERVES SO BAD RIGHT NOW SHE CANT EVEN WATCH TV. SHE TURN HER HEAD EVERY TIME SHE SEE A POLICE, SHE SCARED TO LOOK CAUSE IT MIGHT BE ME IN THE BACKSEAT. WHENEVER SHE HEAR ABOUT A SHOOTING HER HEART SKIP A BEAT, SHE HEARD THE FEDS IN TOWN HER KNEES GOT WEAK, SHE KNOW IM AT HOUSE THE ONLY TIME SHE AT PEACE. HER BLOOD PRESSURE TO THE ROOF ALL BECAUSE OF ME.
HER FAVORITE WORDS ARE "DOPE AINT THE ONLY WAY TO EAT" SHE TOLD ME THE OTHER DAY SHE HOPE I DONT DIE IN THESE STREETS I JUST PRAY TO GOD SHE DONT WIPE HER HANDS WITH ME.
IM A GOON TO THE STREETS BUT TO MY MAMA IM STILL HER BABY, RAISED A STREET GIRL BY HERSELF YOU A HELL OF A LADY THE SHIT IM DOING NOW GOT NOTHING TO DO WITH HOW U RAISED ME. SHIT KILLING ME TO KNOW IM RUNNING MY MAMA CRAZY.
I REMEMBER THE NIGHTS ME SITTING UP IN A COLD CELL. IM WAKING U UP OUT UR SLEEP ITS ME CALLING FROM JAIL. YOU AINT SAY IT BUT I KNOW INSIDE YOU MAD AS HELL U CALLED OFF FROM WORK JUST TO BOND ME OUT OF JAIL. I GET IN TROUBLE I CALL YOU SEEM LIKE IT NEVER FAILS. I CAN HEAR U NOW "GIRL U NEED TO SIT YOUR ASS DOWN SOME WHERE" I COME AND EAT I TAKE A SHOWER THEN IM OUT OF THERE. I KNOW IM STRESSING YOU AT TIMES SEEMS LIKE I DONT CARE. YOU WROTE BAD CHECKS FOR ME TO HAVE SOMETHING TO WEAR. U RISKED UR FREEDOM FOR ME 9 DAYS THATS REAL RARE. EVERYTIME I THINK ABOUT THIS SHIT I WANNA SHED A TEAR, THATS WHY I BUY U SOMETHING FOR FATHERS DAY EVERY YEAR.
U DID THE BEST U COULD WITH ME AND I LOVE U FOR THAT, WANTED ME TO STAY IN SCHOOL BUT THAT AINT WHERE MY HEART WAS AT. I GOT EXPOSED TO THE STREETS AND FELL IN LOVE WITH STACKS AND ALL THE TIMES I HURT U, WISH I COULD TAKE IT BACK, WHEN DADDY LEFT US U STEPPED UP AND TOOK HIS SLACK. I KNOW IM SELFISH AND FEELINGS IS SOMETHING I KNOW I LACK. THE SHIT IM DOING NOW I KNOW U RAISED ME BETTER THAN THAT. U SHOWED ME HOW TO BE A WOMEN AND SHOWED ME HOW TO ACT. SOMETIMES I WONDER HOW U STILL PROUD OF UR DAUGHTER. AFTER ALL THE STUFF I TOOK U THROUGH AND ALL THE SHIT I DONE. WELL LIKE YOU TOLD ME WHEN GOD WANT ME HOW I CANT RUN. BEFORE HE TAKE ME WANT U TO KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE U MOM.
I DONT THINK WE SIT DOWN LONG ENOUGH SOMETIMES JUST TO REALIZE WHAT WE TAKING OUR MAMA THROUGH, IT HURT ME TO KNOW THAT IM RUNNING MY MAMA CRAZY ITS REALLY KILLING ME TO KNOW THAT IM HELPING IN  KILLING MAMA WITH ALL DA STRESS. PLIES (EDITED)

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