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I dont know....... Why

Even if she didn't see me...
Even if she never listen me...
I will stand in the same place
wer i m wen we wer together
In the darkness, alone....
Waiting for a ray of love from my paru....
Till my last breathe stops....
It wont stops so fast.. becaz...
My love for her is so strong...
Which darkness can't stop me loving...
I love her... I love her...
More than anything in this world...
Even sometime.... More than my mother...
More than my mother earth....
More than the air i breath...
More than the water i drink...
More than the food i eat....
More than good dress i wear...
But i wont say more than my cell phone...
Becaz i love my mobile.....
The reason is already known...
Becaz the pearson who i talk
much is my paru.....
The mobile i kept near by while
sleeping... Because i feel she is
with me... Wen i bath i hesitate to
keep der and go.. and comes quickly
back to see wheather der is a misscal
from her, my beautiful paru.... She is already
in my soul... Then place wer no one can extract from..
Because its my soul.... Its my soul... The place wer
she sits... The place wer she lies..
The place wer she walk..
The place wer she dance....
The place wer she touch....
I love my college... becz
i got her from tat wonderfull place
which i like the most of the place...
I remember the place which i talk to her
for the first time.. I remember how much i sweat that time...
Still teachers watching from the staff room... I enjoyed the
moment wen i looked her eyes for the first time... First experinece is the
best one,,, I m writing all these wen she is der online for chat, but
i didnt chat
with her..i just minimize her chat window, and kept beside me to write
wat ever is der in my mind.. in my soul... These letters come like
water flowing in a stream... my love flows through my hand
That flow wont finish... I dont know wat i m writing
I dont know wat i m doing...
I dont know wat i will be...
I know only one thing....
I love her sinceraly.....
I love her more than me....
I love her more than anything in this universe....
I dont know you willl read till here...
Sometime you wont...
And i wont complain you... becaz
i know i m mad and i lost the ability to think
I remember the day she cried with out sleeping
Wen i came in the train in general compartment...
She could'nt sleep because i m suffering out there...
But she is now acting over me tat she is not loving me...
She neglects my pain.... I can feel the fire inside her heart
while doing these cruel to me.. I know she loves me....
But as she said.. Life has some meaning only wen
we live for somebody...
Still i love you.... My parukutty...
enteparukutty...
This is my password for everything...
Those paswords will be with me throughout my life with my username
which are mostly my name. When we die they will still exits tilll the google,
yahoo, ICICI, irctc, people remove my account form their database...
But still she will be attached to my soul....
Now i stops writing, still my parukutty is next to me in
my chat box.. But i m afraid to say her that i send a mail
which comes from my heart, sometimes she may yell at me..
some times she will say some bad words which will hurt me..
But still i love my parukutty...
I dont know why...
I dont know why....
Why.....
Who knows....
Even GOD dont knows....
Machan

Comments (1)
    • When you're head over heels in love with someone sometimes you grip too hard and smother the very one you love. Sad but true! You overwhelm them with your feelings which they may not share completely. It happens often that we push away the one we love or feel helpless as we realize that love is headed in opposite direction...more than anything..it hurts. It's a time for faith and also the realization that it may not work out the way we hope it does. It's hard to stare your greatest fears in the face and the feeling is often that you cannot live another day. But realize your love for this person....you can keep. You likely could never hate her, never completely stop caring. So hang on a little longer, be kind to her, back off a bit and if she still cares...she'll find her way back to your care. If she chooses to leave....try to bear your loss graciously and try not to be bitter for it. It's rare to be touched so deeply by someone and in the end it helps us recognize what love feels like. Love humbles us. Hope it works out for you.
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