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A love story by Lelona Elizabeth Wilger Cancaida

Have you ever experienced being wraped in a world of darkness? A world that not a bit of light shines upon it. And you’re in it for quite a long time now, like you can’t track the days that passed by, and then suddenly in just a snap of a finger, it lightens and what you see is a paradise that is oh so beautiful, with meadow surrounded by beautiful flowers, trees that is magestically green, fresh air that you breathe in and a sun that shines luminousy bright. That is what I felt when I got heartbroken and then Cupid have stricken my heart with his bow and arrow and I fell in love all over again. You get heartbroken because the relationship you take good care of didn’t had a happy ever after ending, it didn’t work out the way you wanted it to end. And then you got depressed, you cried your heart out and then you couldn’t take care of yourself anymore. But every heartbreak leads you to a new found love. You fall in love again, but this time it would be much better because from your previous heartbreak you learned to love yourself, you learned to love your partner a notch higher and you matured. This story is based on Jack and I love story. That you will learn that there’s a rainbow always after the rain. And that every heartbreak have a purpose, and you will discover it at the end of the story.

It has been two years since I experienced my last heartbreak. Like any other girls I cried my heart out because I was depressed. And crying is the best medication for depression and eating a lot too (LOL). So for a year and how many months I secluded myself away from love. I go to school to study, during breaks I spend my time in the library and friends and after school I go home immediately. Same as after graduation when I found a job, I go to work do my job then go straight back home after work. That was my daily routine back then. Then February came the “Love Month” and would you believe that on Valentine’s Day I was sick so I spent the whole day at home. So my friend’s visited me to check how am I doing. Then my best friend told me that I should move on and that I should search for my soul mate again. I told her I’m not ready yet and she said “you are so ready Lelona.” So I asked her “Okay, if I’m ready why am I still single until now?” and you know what she said to me? “It’s because you’re being a sourgrape, that you think all lesbians are the same. If you’re gonna give them another shot’ I’m sure this time around it would be different. Come on Lelona,
I know deep inside you are so ready to move on. You’re beautiful and smart, there are lots of butch that would love to go on a date with you. So what can you say?” Then I think for a minute and said “Okay, you are right I’m so ready to move on and this time I can feel it that it would be different. But the problem is how would I be able to find him?” My best friend smiled and replied “that is so easy. What’s the use of internet? And much better Friendster. Why not try posting in one of the groups there with members who are lesbians like you? For sure lots of butch would reply to your post. And if you want them to be able to contact you personally try including your cellphone number in your announcement.” “You know what best that’s a very brilliant idea. Yeah. I’ll do that. Gosh best, what will I do without you? You really are the best.” So my best friend bid goodbye because they still have errands to do.

So days passed by, and Saturday came. I was thinking of what I should be writing in the announcement that I would be posting in Friendster. I searched for groups that have lesbians as their members. I found this group “4LezOnly” and there I posted my announcement. I stated  that I was looking for my “Other Half” and included my cellphone number. So that those who would be able to read my post could contact me personally. After posting my announcement I asked God for a sign that when my “Other Half” texted I would be feeling something tingly as if there are butterflies in my tummy. So I logged out already and turned on my mp3 to listen to my favorite songs. While I was in the mids of enjoying the songs and dancing along to the beat I received a message, actually two messages but to my dismay I wasn’t able to feel anything so obviously my “Other Half” haven’t texted yet. So I continued soundtripping and I wasn’t able to notice the time and that it was dinner time already. So I ate my dinner and afterwards washed the dishes. After doing my chore I reached for my cellphone to check if my “Other Half” has texted already. But I didn’t felt anything when I saw on my cellphone’s screen that there’s one message received. So it’s past my bedtime so I slept already because we’re going to Church the next day.


Morning came and I took a bath. Just like any other Sunday’s after my bath I went through our cabinet to pick the clothes that I would be wearing, then put it on and put some light makeup and I’m good to go. After hearing mass, me and my family went to a restaurant to fill our starving tummies and went to the grocery to buy things we need in the house like toiletries, beverages and something to cook for supper. And then we went home. Upon arriving to our house I changed clothes, then reached for my cellphone immediately to check if my “Other Half” has texted already. And when my phone is in my hand now I felt something tingly like there are butterflies in my tummy, and flashbacks run to my mind and recalled the sign I asked God that when my “Other Half” texted me I would feel something. The feeling that I have felt right this instance. And when I came back to my senses and everything has been all figured out my cellphone rung and in the screen flashed 1 message received. At the back of my mind I said to myself “Oh my gosh, this is it. The text message I’m waiting for. The text of my “Other Half”.” Then I read his text, in his text he introduced himself formally. He said that he saw my post in Friendster and that he wants to be friends with me. What follows is his exact text: (“Hello! Good Afternoon! I’m jack, 38 yo, from ortigas. I saw your post in Friendster and I wanted to make friends. If that’s ok with you?”) When I finished reading his text I felt sad because “He’s the One” but all he wanted was to be friends with me. But on the second hand friend’s leads to lovers and lovers lead to husband and wife. (HAHA! YEAH RIGHT LELONA… As IF!!!...Well what can I say there’s nothing wrong fantasizing right)… Back to the story, so I replied and said “Sure we can be friends.” So we became constant textmates, we exchanged greetings and even remind each other to eat.

Then one morning, I think that was a Friday Jack greeted me a good morning. But this time “Good Morning Sunshine!” And I don’t know what the heck I did, out of the blue my snobbish attitude came out and I replied, “So you really need to call me Sunshine?” And after that Jack didn’t reply anymore. I felt depressed of the thought that he didn’t text anymore, but I couldn’t blame him because it was my fault. So out of depression I wasn’t able to notice that I fell asleep. And when I woke up I immediately checked my cellphone if Jack texted and I was so glad that I even jumped when I checked my inbox it’s Jack’s name that appeared. So I read his text and felt relieved, then I replied saying sorry to what just happened earlier. And he accepted my apology. (SO HAPPY!!!^_^) I missed him, so much!!!. And our conversation lasted long that we didn’t noticed that it’s night already. So he told me that he need to get ready for work already and that he would just text me if he’s done preparing. So I waited for his text, and what can I say he really did text me after finishing preparing for work. So we continued what we left unfinished. I enjoyed exchanging text messages with him, I felt at ease. Like I don’t need to worry bout anything. So what a bummer because I have to go to sleep already so I told him that I’ll be texting him immediately when I wake up. So he bid me a goodnight.

So Saturday came and when I woke up I immediately texted Jack, he told me that he’s on his way home. Then he asked me if we can meet later, but I told him that I wouldn’t be able to make it because my family doesn’t know that I’m into a same sex relationship. And Jack being so nice, he understood my situation. But I told him that we can meet on Tuesday after my work and he loved the idea. So we set our date, so we both agreed that we would meet in Makati at Starbuck’s Pacific Star 5pm. So now that our date is settled and he arrived home safely, I told him that he should sleep first. And told him that to text me when he wakes up. And while Jack is sleeping I was doing household chores, I washed the dishes, I cleaned the shelves where my books are stored and some other stuffs. And it’s dinner time when Jack texted me that he just woke up and he was just eating his dinner. And like any other day we pretty much enjoy texting each other.

Time flies by and another week starts, it was Monday noon when I thought of texting Jack if we can move our date and make it later. He agreed, so I got excited because I would be able to meet my soulmate already. And it was almost 5pm when our supervisor told us that we would be having an emergency meeting and I was dismayed by the thought that my date with Jack is gonna be postponed and that I wouldn’t be able to meet him today. So I texted Jack immediately that we would have to postpone our date and that I was sorry because our supervisor announced in the very last minute that we are having an emergency meeting about our teams production and regarding our working attitude. And then Jack told me that he’s almost in Makati now, so I asked him if he could wait for me until 6pm. And he said to me that that would be fine with him. So our date is still on, and when our meeting ended I immediately went out of the conference room and went to my desk to get my bag and I rushed myself to the elevator and out of the building and texted Jack that I’m on my way and that to not expect that I’m pretty. So when I’m in Starbuck’s already I asked him if where is he, and he told me that he is near the guard. And when I saw the guard, I saw Jack but not that clearly yet. I approached the table he is occupying and when I was walking nearer and nearer to the table little by little I see Jack clearly. And when I reached to the table I saw Jack and my world stopped revolving, my heart skipped a beat and there are butterflies in my tummy. I said at the back of my mind. “Oh my gosh Lelona, he’s “The One”.” And when I was back to my own self again, I smiled at him and said “Hi! I’m so sorry to keep you waiting.” “No, it’s okay. You still kept me company through text. So I wasn’t able to notice what time it is.” Then he asked me what do I want to eat and I told him that I want a waffle and an expresso frappe. So he ordered for me and even served my food. Such a gentleman! I must say. So we had a chit chat and the whole date he made me laugh. That’s a pogi point because I love guys who would make me laugh. I enjoyed our date, and Jack said he enjoyed our date as well. So Jack offered to take me home. And while we are in the cab he asked me if we can date exclusively. And I agreed to what he said. Of course I would love to go on plenty of dates with him, now that I’m sure that I fell in love with him the first time I laid my eyes on him. I kissed Jack on the cheeks and told him thank you for the wonderful night, I really enjoyed our date, and he held my hand and kissed me back and ask me if I could stay. I love to stay but my mom would get mad at me if I would go home pretty late. Jack understood me and told me that he would be seeing me soon. So I bid goodbye to him and vice versa. I arrived our house smiling, my mom got mad at me but it’s worth it so no prob. And I texted Jack take care thanks for a wonderful night. Text you tomorrow when I wake up. And he bid me goodnight.

So when I woke up I texted him immediately, I greeted him a good morning. And I arrived to work with a smile drawn to my face. My friend’s asked me why I’m smiling. You know what I told them? I said to them that I already found my “Other Half” and that this time around it's gonna be different. So it was around 10 am when Jack woke up and texted me. He asked me if I could remember what he told me yesterday regarding us dating exclusively. And I said I remember it, then he told me if we are gonna be dating exclusively that only means I wouldn’t be entertaining other butch anymore and that he as well wouldn’t be entertaining other girls. As in totally exclusive. So after saying that Jack asked me, that if we are gonna be dating exclusively does that mean we’re a couple already. And all I answered is YES!. And that was March 24, 2009. This is when we became boyfriend-girlfriend.

I love you so much dhie!...You’re the best thing that ever happened to my life. And I’m so thankful that God gave you to me. Again I love you so much.

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