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There's just noway to show you, All the regret so deep inside. Found all the things I wanted to show you, Came out from all those places I hide. I'll never ever have you like, Those days I did back then. You have those days with someone else, I've left myself with "remember when". No one can come back in now, No matter how hard they try. Doesn't matter if I want them to, They won't know the reason why. You were the one I was meant to have, But I guess free will is a b*tch. I went along thinking you would always be there, That must have been the hitch. You made me feel so special, Like no one ever has. What was once my high, is now the other guys. I make myself so sad. It's just and endless circle, 'Till the day I finally die. With no one left to remember me, With no one left to cry. I can only pray that your happy, It's what helps me cope. To know that you've got what you should. They only thing that gives me hope. I'll never have another, A love that was so true. So many years to be alone, All these years to dream of you.
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There's just noway to show you, All the regret so deep inside. Found all the things I wanted to show you, Came out from all those places I hide. I'll never ever have you like, Those days I did back then. You have those days with someone else, I've left myself with "remember when". No one can come back in now, No matter how hard they try. Doesn't matter if I want them to, They won't know the reason why. You were the one I was meant to have, But I guess free will is a b*tch. I went along thinking you would always be there, That must have been the hitch. You made me feel so special, Like no one ever has. What was once my high, is now the other guys. I've made myself so sad. It's just and endless circle, 'Till the day I finally die. With no one left to remember me, With no one left to cry. I can only pray that your happy, It's what helps me cope. To know that you've got what you should. They only thing that gives me hope. I'll never have another, A love that was so true. So many years to be alone, All these years to dream of you.
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Submitted by Kevin E-mail: imkman83@yahoo.com How many times did you try to tell me? How many times did I looked passed your worried face? How could I ever be so evil? How long did I keep you in that place?You were just my play toy, I thought would always be there. But now you've found another boy, Now I can't say how much I care. I don't deserve to even see you, I treated you like dirt. Never listening to a word you said, Not knowing how bad you were hurt. I didn't know how wrong I was, You had to leave, to make me see. I know how wrong I was because, I realize now that it won't ever be. Throw away my worthless memory, Wash it from your hands. Look to see someone elses light, Just forget about who I am. Now I'm stuck forever, Remembering your sweet face. Seeing you when I woke up in the morning. And feeling your warm embrace. Please make all the heartache stop, This life just makes it worse. Thinking about you makes my heart always drop, My soul is dead, I feel like I am cursed. Screaming in the dark so gently, The light is much to hard. Now you know it changed, much too differently, Everything I felt for you was in total disregard. I can't stand to think about it, I hope that I can deserve you again somehow, How could I just leave and quit? I hurt more then my mind will allow.
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Submitted by Kevin E-mail: imkman83@yahoo.com All the world loves things, of beauty and intrigue. These two things, I've never had one. Born in this old skin, I'm to sick I can't win. I've lived with this damage too long. My eyes can't behold it, I cannot control this. This feeling that's left in my heart. I've never done no wrong, I don't deserve these bones. Please burn up this sin when I'm gone.And I said that this, is ugly to me. The world. is ugly to me. You, are ugly to me. And I, am ugly to me. I haven't become all I want to be I haven't become anything I need to be. I haven't become all I want to be. I haven't become anything I need to be. Why can't you look, why can't you look at me? See what I see. Why can't you feel, why can't you feel like me? Feel what I feel. Why can't you hurt, why can't you hurt like me? Taste the pain I feel. Why must I die, why must I die for you? When it's the ugly truth. Well it's ugly. It's making me painless. Why can't you look, why can't you look at me? See what I see. Why can't you feel, why can't you feel like me? Feel what I feel. Why can't you hurt, why can't you hurt like me? Taste the pain I feel. Why must I die, why must I die for you? When it's the ugly truth. Well it's ugly.
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Submitted by Kevin E-mail: imkman83@yahoo.com I'm a fool and I'm an *sshole, I'm everything inbetween. I thought that I was showing love, But how could I be so mean?I thought my plan was simple, Spend sometime to get life together. Try to get a place, some money. We could be together forever. Somehow I was in a time warp. It seemed like only days. But it was really almost a year. Now I'm stuck inside this haze. You waited for me, prayed I'd come home, You just didn't know if or when. I thought I knew just what to do, Now I don't even know where I've been. And now it's too late, You've moved on and I'm the past. No more waiting, your time is now, And time goes by so fast. All I do now is dream about you, Those nights we held on tight. And how theres nothing I can do now, No matter how hard I fight. You know I love you, our connection was so strong, There must be something there. I'll wait like you did, but forever, To show just how I care. I know you have someone else, And I'm sure he loves you in his own way, But you know, like I know, we were meant to be. For forever and a day.

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Submitted by Kevin E-mail: imkman83@yahoo.com Tell me that it meant something. Tell me that you cared. Show me that you thought you tried. Show me your heart was there. I know I tried to hard, I thought that it was love. But you can't just turn and walk away. You cant, it's not enough. In my eyes you were an angel. Glowing bright with love. But I fell, you sent me to Hell. Never to rise above. I don't know what I did to you, You didn't treat me right. I guess somehow I must deserve this. Because I'm alone tonight. No one there for me to hold onto. No one's arms to hold me tight. Just a blanket, and an empty pillow. Close my eyes and dream of you. That pillow is you tonight. Goodnight my love where ever you are. Someone else is holding you tight. You don't know, you were a star. And you are my angel tonight.

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Submitted by Kevin E-mail: imkman83@yahoo.com There are times when I'm scared to tell you. Because you don't want to hear. Times when I'm scared to show you. Because you don't want me near. All my fears are why your gone now. Too scared to tell you why. You ran so fast, I just don't know how. Your gone and all I can do is cry. Too scared to tell you that it makes me sad, To know you no longer care. I'm scared that if I tell you, You'll wish you were never there. I know It's sad, and you don't realize. You're tearing me up inside. To know your gone, and you've moved on. And there's nowhere I can hide. I'm just scared that it's just me, Theres no one else around. I look everywhere for someone. And now I'm scared there's no one like you to be found.

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Submitted by Kevin E-mail: imkman83@yahoo.com Screaming softly in my face, And never hearing a sound. Looking through you, My eyes closed tightly, I blinded myself somehow.Open thoughts of closed conversation, Stealing what was free. Smashing mirrors of isolation, Your the only one I can see. Delirious, random ranting Thinking what I know. Slowly speeding faster, With nowhere left to go. Knowing that you should be with me, Tearing up my mind. Life isn't tasting the way it should be, When I'm losing what I find. So just scream softly in my face, You know I know the sound. Lets run far away from this place, And start finding what we found.

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Submitted by Kevin E-mail: imkman83@yahoo.com Screaming softly in my face, And never hearing a sound. Looking through you, My eyes closed tightly, I blinded myself somehow.Open thoughts of closed conversation, Stealing what was free. Smashing mirrors of isolation, Your the only one I can see. Delirious, random ranting Thinking what I know. Slowly speeding faster, With nowhere left to go. Knowing that you should be with me, Tearing up my mind. Life isn't tasting the way it should be, When I'm losing what I find. So just scream softly in my face, You know I know the sound. Lets run far away from this place, And start finding what we found.

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Submitted by Kevin E-mail: imkman83@yahoo.com I should have always told you I love you, I should have always tried. I should have always been there to hold you, I should have never lied.I should have been more forward, I should have never made you cry. I should have been more caring, I should have never said goodbye. I should have stopped the fighting, I should have made you stay. I should have showed you my writing, I should have found a way. I know now what I should have done, But that won't fix your heart. I should have realized you were the one, We should have never fell apart. I know that you've moved on without me, You've found another man. I swear to you, with God before me, He can't love you like I can. I hope that you don't take this wrong, And I hope you understand. You're the only one that keeps me sane, When I know that I'm your man.

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Submitted by Kevin E-mail: imkman83@yahoo.com If you weren't real, Then I'd make you up. And my will to feel, Would have been enough.It's not so much a question, But confronting a huge fear. Because everytime I wake at night, Your really never here. I never thought it would happen, You've been gone now, far too long. All my thoughts are racing, How could I be so wrong? Those years are now just memories, But I remember them so well. Like the first time that I saw you, Was the same time that I fell. You've packed your things and left me, So lost and so alone. I hope that these words find you, And you want to come back home. If you weren't real, I'd make you up. Then everything I never did, would have been done. None of those doors would have ever slammed shut, If you weren't real, and I had made you up.

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Submitted by Kevin E-mail: imkman83@yahoo.com I'm sorry for the things I said, And for the things I never did. I'm sorry for the wrong I've made, And not being the right kid.I'm sorry that I never tried, And for giving up on hope. I'm sorry for all those times I lied, And sorry I can't cope. I'm sorry that you can't trust me, And sorry I can't trust you. I'm sorry I'm not what I wanted to be, I'm sorry your so sorry too. I'm sorry it's not what it was. I'm sorry I screwed it up. I'm sorry I had to be the cause, And I'm sorry it wasn't enough. I'm sorry I can't take it back, And sorry theres nothing you can do. I'm sorry for everything I lack, So sorry it's all true.

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