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My patience had gone through a lot of  finish lines..
Now I guess I'll be needing a break..
A break that would prioritize myself,
A break to ease my wounded heart,
A break that will refresh my life..

I love you
But my love for you would never be enough to suffer from this pain.

#enough

I love you
I care about you
I always think about you
It's all about you.
And now, I already have nothing
Nothing but the pain
The pain I've been hiding for so long
The pain that keeps on hurting me more everyday
The pain that is killing me
The pain that you've caused me..

#hurt

Never assume you can handle your own problem when the truth is you can't.
Its okay to reflect on your own once in a while
Cause you'll learn a lot
But when the time comes you feel like crushing down,
Never assume you can still make it on your own
Cause it may only lead you into a bitter decision
That would make a bigger problem.

I've been there.. I've done it..
It hurts.. It really does..

#alone

How I wish someday I would have strength to tell and fight for what I feel
I wish that someday I would feel the true happiness I've been longing for
To wish for the person I love to realize my worth,
and for him to realize how I've been sacrificing my happiness just for him.
I understand him, but does he ever think of understanding me?

#sad

I thought I'm already strong enough to face our relationship
I thought I won't let myself fail again
I know I've tried not to fail
But I've fallen so deep again
I've already learned from my past
I know what to do
But I don't have the strength to do so.

#stupid

As i go on with my life now,

I've given you myself, my everything.

You've changed me a lot.

You've successfully made me the way you wanted me to be.

I've shown you a lot to prove how much I love you.

The only thing I want to know is that,

Have you ever asked yourself if I'm happy being who am I right now?

Have you ever think about what i want?

Are you happy and contented with me now?

Or you're still asking for more?

I've already built my world around you.

I love you..

#love

Through these years,
How I wish you're here with me.
You're the only person I know who can understand me.
The only person I know who loves me above anything else.

As I close my eyes,
The glimpse of your smile is all I can see
When I think about how much I love you
Tears running through my face.

How I really miss being with you
The way you hug me
The way you wipe away my tears
The way you make me laugh
The presence you've given me when I feel alone
The way you treat me like a Princess
The random "I love you's" you say
As it lingers to me on and on..

I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU
DAD

#missing

Haven't thought about myself in a while
I thought I'd be okay.
I thought I'm strong enough to hide the truth.
The truth that I'm already hurting

I always cared about you and how you feel.
I always wanted to do things in your way.
I thought I'd be happy.

I thought letting you role my life would lead me to where i want to be.
But now, I'm so lost
Lost and don't know where to find that missing part of me.

And that's HAPPINESS..

#broken

I just can't speak the words from my mind
Too many questions without any answers
I just don't know how i feel.

Everyday that full of doubts and fears,
Every night that's drowning me in tears.
If i could just borrow a bit of time from my past,
And think, what I've done wrong in my life
And on which way i would go.


"LOVE isn't matter about how you feel at the moment you are happy,
but LOVE is what you feel when you're suffering from pain".

#love

Being in a relationship is not as easy as you know,
It can be happier than you think,
but it hurts more like hell..

if you know how to love,
you should also know how to take care of it.

When it comes to relationship,
too much pride is not necessary,
cause it destroys you..
to understand is what you need,
cause it stays your relationship much stronger than it should be.

#love

I've broke your heart in two
And told your love goodbye
I've tangled up my destiny
and interrupted fate
You was my one desire
I need you in my life now
I can't go on this way
You're the one I need
You're the one I love
The one whom I've left behind

#love