jb1550

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i am actually 15
a little feeling i have is that I have this perfect feeling of loss of control and Freedom of abandonment its so perfect but is it right no one will truly know so just melt away holding your memories like weapons of a once had life and hold my words like a flag of what i stand for what i once i had i will once get but for now i have to get by on what is given
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Everytime i think of you all memories Collapse
Its like each and everyday im slipping into the past
It must be the Look In your eyes the worried Stare
But I promise to God Losing you is my Biggest Fear
All the Worries and Stress built up i Just want you to stay
And as these Waterfalls of Emotion Come Down i dont wanna be this way
I Wont ever leave I want to make this known
There is this Abundance Of Emotions that i want to be shown
Trust is a crazy thing to have its like walking in the dark
But once you have it we seem to notice its a beautiful Art
So in your hands i place my faith everything held inside
And i ask you to let me be the one to whom you confide
I wont make a move until you give me the Okay
Just know that i want be here through sleepless nights and each endless day

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Joey Butler June 30 at 2:24pm
Is it the way her hair falls in my face
Or the way her head fits mine with perfect place
The way her eyes shine so clear
Or her worries smile showing the perfect touch of fear
The dizzy bright shine of her hair in the light
Or the way she says three words worth the whole fight
The perfect laugh or the breath-stealing smile
I've Got this feeling i might lose her for awhile
Am i crazy to running after her no matter the cost
Why does the right path always make you feel so lost
I have a picture in my hand A gap in my heart
I'll follow where she goes but where do i start
It hurt to be so close hurt to be so near
Losing her has always been my deepest fear
I dont think i can cope not having her by my side
But the feelings once holding us together have seemed to slide
Kinda Crazy how things change so fast
It really makes you wonder what can truly last
And i guess i must of messed up once more
Because now i lost her and it almost cant be restored
Well it hurts to hear goodbye time and time everyday
I just cant say it and won't dare to follow this way
You already got me on that first kiss
To know i'll never have another Molly, It's you I'm gonna miss

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Is it the way her hair falls in my face
Or the way her head fits mine with perfect place
The way her eyes shine so clear
Or her worries smile showing the perfect touch of fear
The dizzy bright shine of her hair in the light
Or the way she says three words worth the whole fight
The perfect laugh or the breath-stealing smile
I've Got this feeling i might lose her for awhile
Am i crazy to running after her no matter the cost
Why does the right path always make you feel so lost
I have a picture in my hand A gap in my heart
I'll follow where she goes but where do i start

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Its something missing in my heart that cant be found
The reason I see you and feel immediatly down
Im scared to death to lose you everything about you everyday
I dont think there is a chance i could meet anyone else to make me feel this way
I Love You thats all there is to it simple and clear
Please stay By my side always be close and near
My heart has shattered my mind whipped around
Im just asking you to hold my hand and not make a sound
Look at me and it will say all i need to hear
Seeing your Baby Blue Eyes take up all my fear
Your the one i hoped for I could bet my heart
We're one month in but it's just the start

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I heard your voice leaving me the sound it seemed to fade
The way you walked away from me left an everlasting crave
I was stuck waiting for your voice your smile
But then i realized I'd have to wait for awhile
I could almost feel the light swimming cross your hair
The way it moved seemed like an unbreakable piece of air
Then i swere i felt the rain on our skin
The way the thunder the lightning took us both in
For a second i Swere i felt your soft lips meet mine
But then i realized it was something in the back of my mind
I closed my eyes for a minute grasping how things were to be
But then i remember the problem and Now i can truly see
The way the light turns your eyes into a million bright stars
Makes me feel like i wont ever be too far
I have this place in my heart that i was holding for a girl like you
If only I would've known it would become this true

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When I hear something of deepest pain
I feel like something inside of me is slain
I see all the problems and everything wrong
And it is impossible to forget like a repeating song
I feel regret and some kind of stuck in place feeling
I feel like im the one imperfect being
There is no solution or change in thought
I feel like this is a battle that cant be fought
The world seems to crash on my back
I feel it all slipping through my hands im losing track
I cant explain the fear of loneliness the feeling of fear
Because when im alone i feel you'll never be near
I seem to split in two every time there is another crack
I have this feeling that if i go crazy i may not come back

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When I hear something of deepest pain
I feel like something inside of me is slain
I see all the problems and everything wrong
And it is impossible to forget like a repeating song
I feel regret and some kind of stuck in place feeling
I feel like im the one imperfect being
There is no solution or change in thought
I feel like this is a battle that cant be fought
The world seems to crash on my back
I feel it all slipping through my hands im losing track
I cant explain the fear of loneliness the feeling of fear
Because when im alone i feel you'll never be near
I seem to split in two every time there is another crack
I have this feeling that if i go crazy i may not come back

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It hurts like hell to get hit in the heart
But you gotta realize we are doomed from the start
The thing that makes our years truly pass
Is that full half of the glass
We have to accept world as it truly Reflects
If not we are faced with a thousand rejects
We lose ourselves and sometimes cant breathe
But In the end its that one person we truly need
Just be better i know things will shine through
And no matter what im here for you
Just please once really be okay
Because it really hurts to see you this way

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He lives his life in fear in need
Fate strikes him with most gruesome deeds
Anxiety rests in his soul like a rising sun
He is shaking startled his heart weighs a ton
Lifting his feet he starts to fly
All his thoughts and emotions simply float by
he holds in his hands broken frames and dimming lights
He wears an armor of worries scarred with his fights
Then wind dies he is plummeting to his escape
Falling and Falling racing the pace
He hits the ground his head in a dark hole
He is fading now there is no chance to console
But before his light fades out She grabs his hand and takes lead
When he is with her he has no worry no need
Destiny gave a small break one last shot
And although fate left him there to rot
He broke through and found one of his own kind
And every single day he thinks she was the perfect find

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Im staring at a path that goes on for miles on end
And the darkness is crowding me in theres no time to spend
Im stuck my feet are frozen merged into the ice
My heart is slowing i have no fight
But then you come your running like an angel fast as wind
The lightness you bring slowly drags me in
I could sit here and pray that i would get someone like you
But who would have ever thought it could come sincerly true
You help me out of my rut and push me on my way
And i will never once ever forget the day
The day you and i met you said things would be alright
And we talked and talked through the whole night
You took my hand the secret key to my heart
And its you i will come too whenever i need a new start
I look in your eyes and you give a lovely sigh
I slowly realize its you i wanna be wtih til' i die
So we walk hand in hand each step of the way
And as we grow older we conquer each dying day 

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With every bone in my body im dying to resist you
but theres one part inside me that still holds true
your laugh your smile the way you say my name
but there is something inside me that wants to stay in this game
Its a random stream of undying love
where or when doesnt matter your still up above
Im holding on to something that never was truly there
but when im around you i feel like i dont have a single care
you make my world flip and twist showing true colors and wish
yet i still feel like something is deep inside this slow but steady pitch
I love you when you dont love back
and trace you the right way when i have lost path
Things seem to shine in a different kind of way
The colors all around you shine with a bright kind of ray
But i dont get it i'm stuck in one picture a single thought
And even though this might be a war you have my heart bought
Im stuck wuith no way out and its not a cry nor a dying request
I just hope i really do that you and me can fix all the rest
I wanna say your name again without worrying bout the fears
I wanna be with you without the million tears 
It seems like this is just a very poor kind of cry
So i'll just leave you be while i slowly rot and die

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With every bone in my body im dying to resist you but theres one part inside me that still holds true; your laugh your smile the way you say my name but there is something inside me that wants to stay in this game; Its a random stream of undying love; where or when doesnt matter your still up above; Im holding on to something that never was truly there but when im around you i feel like i dont have a single care; you make my world flip and twist showing true colors and wish yet i still feel like something is deep inside this slow but steady pitch; I love you when you dont love back and trace you the right way when i have lost path;