I have come to the point in my life where I only have one fear. I fear that I have no fears. I love to live life to its fullest and I mean just that. To its fullest!!!I like to experience new and differnt things.
I feed on changes and look forward to them.
I have some hard line feelings towards people that are racial.
IM a biker to the core.
I love white water rafting.I love meeting new people and communicateing with them and becoming friends.
Your beauty is radiant It glows like the sun It shines like polished gold
I shake my head in aw I get distracted I lose my chain of thought
I notice how you stand and the different poses you make You have a rare...very rare beauty that is so very deep I have a hard time describing your beauty in simple words
I am amazed that some one can be so beautiful and show it so many differnt ways Through their appearence Through the material that they write Through the look they give Through the smile on their face Throught the tear in their eye
This beauty that you have is pure and geniune and it can be seen abroad This beauty that you have is only you....only you
It doesnt matter what you do The beauty is still there It will never go away
Beauty is more than just skin deep with you Beauty is you
I am a Crisis worker here where I live and I have done this type of work for a long time. I started it in another state that I lived and just carried it over when I moved here. I get crisis calls from all over the state and my job is to help people that are suicidal, severly depressed, homicidal or just needing some one to talk to.
My phone rang one evening and I was really suprised of the young voice that was on the other line This young voice explained to me that she no longer wanted to live....that life was not worth living...she was very intent... and appeared to had allready came to a decision, on what she was going to do... I asked her what her age was and she explained that she had just turned eight years old
This little eight year old went on to tell me that she no longer had her smile. She explained to me that she had no reason to smile any longer
She went on to tell me that (I) had given her that smile about three years ago when she had come into the hospital where I had worked. I didnt remember because I had seen so many children that were abused, neglected physically and mentally....I asked her her name ...and she told me what it was, she then told me that she was taken to the hospital about three years ago by the police when a neighbor had called them because they had heard her crying real loud in her house.
I then remembered.....it all came rushing back to me that night when this child had come in our Emergerncy Room battered and brusied by her parents. That night I had sit with her the entire time that she was there...I explained how things would get better and how these wounds would heal. As I continued to talk to her she began to smile...she opened up to me and told me her whole life story which brought tears to my eyes. As we talked her little tears had dried on her face the redness left her eyes and a big smile was on her face When portective services came in I explained that I had to go...I gave her a smiley face that I put on her little dirt stained top and gave her a card with my name and phone number on it. I told her to call me if she ever needed any thing....
I now had her on the other line with her telling me that she wanted to die.... When I asked her to please tell me why .... she told me that she had been sent back to live with her parents about two years ago and she explained that she gets a bad spanking each and very day.....even if she has done no wrong. She told me that the other day she tried to run away from her dad but he caught her and knocked her down and then started kicking her
I contiuned to talk to her and at the same time was trying to get assistance and have 911 dispatch some one to her home
I noticed that her voice was starting to drag and become slurred.....it was becoming hard to keep her attention....I asked her what was going on and she had told me that before she called me she had taken her all of her mothers sleeping pills.
I hammered on my other phone... Screaming to the 911 operators what the child had done and what I was hearing... THIS IS AN 8 YEAR OLD THAT NO LONGER WANTS TO LIVE........8 YEARS OLD . THIS 8 YEAR OLD HAS GIVEN UP...........THIS 8 YEAR OLD HAS QUIT..............
I could not really believe that this was happening..... This little 8 year old was loosing.........I was loosing this battle to keep her alive...... And we lost........................
EMS finally arrived at her home and found her locked in her dirty, bug infested nasty room hanging onto to a thread of life...by the time she had arrive to the hospital she had passed.....END OF STORY
What had went wrong? Where did society let this child down.......... I had never become so close to some thing so much as I did this in my life.
If you are the SCUM of the earth like this childs family and wants to discipline your children by beating them ..... email me and let me know........ Come on!!!!.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.. I want to become very close to you...... You will beat a helpless child that cannot protect them self.... I have something you can beat on..... I will even agree to come to meet you.... For those of you that consider physical abuse as proper punishment for something that a child has done wrong please come to me.... Contact me.... What are u afraid of??????????? I have something for you.....let me give you what you have given your child....Hit for Hit.!!!!!!!!!!..I would be happy to do so.... Lets see if it helps you...be a better person or changes your stupid ass!
Children dont let any one abuse you.....physical abuse, mental abuse, sexual abuse or any type of physical punichment is totally unacceptable!!!!!! It is not allowed...its against the law!!!! so if it happens to you let some one know....Call the police....email me....You dont have to live that way...there is a better way...anything is better than death....dont you agree? ...You dont have to live in fear..You dont have to live with mental or physical scars...... All children should be loved and cared for they should never live in fear of any one. They should be protected by those parents
We walk down the hall leaving work Talking about the evening we just had
I ask what are u doing the rest of the evening You tell me that you need to do your hair and take a long shower and go to bed
I ask if you want to go for a ride You hesitate then reply Why not
We climb on the motorcycle and it roars to life We jet off down the street Into the darkness of the night
The warm air and wind blowing through our hair There is a full moon out that is so beautiful
We head towards the beach We hear it calling us....calling us.....calling us....... We taste the salt in the air as we become near
You wrap your arms around me and fondle the buttons on my shirt Releasing them one by one My heart starts to race as your hands move futher down my stomach
Unhooking my belt and unbuttoning my jeans Causes me to giggle and let out a scream
We finally get to the beach and park on the beach access. We run into the night taking our clothes off You jump into my arms and we run in to the surf A high wave coming in hits us and causes us to gasp for air and stumble I catch you as you begin to fall I lift you in to my arms and wade into the ocean I stand staring at the moon as it glows off your beautiful body I turn you around to face me and you wrap your legs around my waiste I tilt you backwards and dip your head into the water I run my fingers through your hair
I kiss you Starting at your neck and working my way down. Here we are alone in the middle of the night out in the ocean making love Full moon over head.. stars.. just hanging around and planets shine at a distance. The only sound is the waves crashing onto the beach....
This beach and this time of the night has become our place...our place to have fun....our place to love.....