God grant me the grace You promise
give me a peace unearthly
show me your perfect love again
undeserving of your mercy
make my heart spotless as the sun
turn not your eyes from me
reveal your plan for my life
that through these trials i will see
the pain that haunts my nights
the memories that destroy my day
are all to shape me like you
so mold me like Your clay
take all that i am and move
fill the hole that has been left
build a heavenly fire in my heart
bridge this mountainous cleft
dry these tears of sorrow
wipe away all of my guilt
and make into ashes the shame
of which my life has readily built
may the passion that i was given
be put into showing Your glory
because Satan has beaten me down
and tried to end Your magical story
then one day i will stand before you
with tears rolling from my face
may you see a tired and beaten son
still holding to Your promised grace
What is beauty but a thought in our head, a feeling in our stomach, something to say in bed?
What is love but another 4 letter word, like kindness and forgiveness, something undeserved?
What is forever but a measure of time, a fight we all lose, a mountain we all climb?
So what is a beautiful love that forever will hold, a bond i know too well, til my body lie cold.
When my world is falling apart
and I have nowhere to run
I turn my eyes to you oh Lord
for the perfect comfort of your Son
God you know all of my hurts
You see the pain I'm going thru
So i pray this with my whole heart
that You show me your love brand new
I pray for You to calm my heart
because I'm too weak on my own
And may this trial make me ready for your work
like a blacksmith sharpens with a stone
I know You can see the future
and that You have a plan for me
But it hurts so much right now
only your perfect knowledge can see
So keep me safe from myself God
and help me to understand
You have everything under your wing
and You will guide me safely thru this land
A man sits alone on a bench
waiting for the time to pass
he knows the end is coming
how long will he last
But He has no fear or grief
he knows he has done well
for his memory goes back
to a little boys bicycle bell
He remembers the store
where he bought that red bike
and the look on his boys face
he was just a little tike
He thinks of the day
that boys name was spoken
his education was done
a diploma his token
The memories of this boy
waiting at the alter
a boy now becoming a man
and praying he wouldnt faulter
His mind goes to the hospital
where he held his first grandchild
where had this time gone
it just seemed so wild
The memories of his wife
laying on her death bed
and having the family next to him
as crying, he lowered his head
Now he sits alone on a bench
but never forgotten he will be
through the lives of his sons
that's what will be his legacy
A man sits alone on a bench
waiting for the time to pass
he knows the end is coming
how long will he last
But He has no fear or grief
he knows he has done well
for his memory goes back
to a little boys bicycle bell
He remembers the store
where he bought that red bike
and the look on his boys face
he was just a little tike
He thinks of the day
that boys name was spoken
his education was done
a diploma his token
The memories of this boy
waiting at the alter
a boy now becoming a man
and praying he wouldnt faulter
His mind goes to the hospital
where he held his first grandchild
where had this time gone
it just seemed so wild
The memories of his wife
laying on her death bed
and having the family next to him
as crying, he lowered his head
Now he sits alone on a bench
but never forgotten he will be
through the lives of his sons
that's what will be his legacy
The blade slides across my skin so gently
slowly releasing my pain from inside
cutting into the very heart of the situation
that makes me feel so angry
i know what im doing to myself
but the pain and anger are too much
i hate this world, i hate myself
there is no remedy for the way i feel
I look for a way out of this hole
to the front and back, side to side
emptiness is all is can see
will there ever be a light to pierce this darkness
We all say we're sorry
for the things we've done to others
but those words are never enough
because the memories dont fade
the memories of all the hate
all the anger you showed to them
they wont go away with just a phrase
nor a hug or a kiss
No action or word will make it better
only love can heal those wounds
yet love can be the cause of these
so why love at all
Why would I do this to you?
The cruel creature has broken its chains
now to run loose and destroy
and my power it begins to gain
How can someone allow such pain?
Love can be a death trap
If we don’t let God have control
and direct us on His prefect map
Has God made His first mistake?
He has given you to me and what of it
just for me to pick it to pieces
and to throw it into a bottomless pit
How long can this dream last?
No one this right ever is real
but for just one more moment
with Satan I would make a deal
You do so much for me
You are the reason for my fun
You are the topping on my cake
You are my moon, stars, and sun
You are my Beautiful
You are my little baby girl
You are the thing that keeps me going
You are what sets my heart a whirl
So all this I write to you
That you may see
All the love I have for you
And how much you mean to me