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Submitted by d3lta E-mail: jodigirl@hotmail.com As i sit and wonder, how we said that last goodbye. My world starts breaking, as i slowly start to cry. you see, I knew it from the start that in the end you'd break my heart, but i'll never be the same, And maby i'm the one to blame. But do you remember when we fell in love? We swore it would never end. We promised it would last no matter how far we had to bend, I thought we could make it, And you were alll i had. And only the good lord knows how i needed you so bad. This pain is unbelivable, And i miss you in every way, I think i'm getting better now,But it's hard for me to say. When i'm with my friends i try to keep my cool. But they all no i'm hurtin cuz i loved you like a FoOl. Maby it was something i said to make you change your mind. But i guess its like they say love is always blind. you'll forever haunt my memeries no matter how much i push you away. But i can't even do that so i guess all i can do is pray. My weekness is taking over and all i see is your beautifull face. But what's shooting through my vains is the thought of you putting her in my place. So i take this bottle and tip it towards the sky and kiss away this pain as we say our last goodbyes... Always ~n~ 4 ever d3lta

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Submitted by delta karns E-mail: jodigirl@hotmail.com I thought you loved me? I thought it was foreal but then you up and left me and now i'm all confused i feel hurt and used.See i loved you for who you were i diden't hate you for what you could not be..... I acceped you for who you were cause when i was with you i felt free... But now i'm all alone with ocwerd silenice on the outher side of the phone... All i wanted to know was why instead of the truth you told me some bullsh*t lie. Don't even begin to say you weren't thinking Don't even begin to say you ment those three words because if you did you would still be mine.. So like i said before i loved you for who you were i didn't hate you for what you could not be....... ...So why can't you love me for just simply being me?!?!? alwaysNforever d3lta

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Submitted by Delta E-mail: jodigirl@hotmail.com Do it fast i whipper to myself...It's to dull i grab anouther one.....I pause.....I'm trembling all over. My skin is pale my hands so cold. My heart is beating so fast i hold the knif stedy and slid it across my wrist. I watch my skin break away slowly....My blood drips to the floor.. I can feel my tears rolling down my cheaks. My face feels so warm.. I start to feel my lower lip tremble. I ignor it and take the knif and slide slowly across my wrist. This time it's much deeper. This one burns a little moore that the first. I gasp for air i do it agin this time it dont hurt. It feels good? It's like all your troubles wash away for that one second. It's like a drug you can't help but do it. Just for that one second one second it makes everything feel ok. It's like the tast of the air on a summer day... I can't stand my life (i do it agin)I hate him for what he did! (i slide it fast across my wrist) What's wrong with me? I whisper to myself as i reack for the bottle of pain pills. I think to my self..How many should i take? How many will make this pain i feel everyday go away? So i pop 16 in one by one................by one.I take the knif and slid it across an allready open wond...My blood drips all over the floor..Ithink how happy im going to be to leave this place..Everything is slowly turning black...And right befor i take my last breath my mom walks in and see's me lieing one the ground in a puddle of my own blood on the floor. And i softly whispered.............. I'm sorry!