my name is destinie
i love writing but i dont let most people read...
i guess um just scared of what they have to say
most of my writing is about a guy who i had been with for 2 years but we went through a lot!
as you cant probobly tell if you read my recent poems we are no longer together,
but were still not over eachother!
its hard be with someone when you no longer live in the same state...
we made it work for about a year...
before everything started falling apart
if you read my writing you will get my life!
i am not the most sane person in the world.
but no1 is,
i kno im not older and people can be judgementle and doubt me
but i have been through a lot!
its been a while, since you messed us up.
i thought u were over the games.
until u decided to give her a call, and u called me, by her name.
i dont know why you think this is fun,with all the pain a tears.
its getting old, i dont diserve this sh*t, common its almost been 2 years.
i cant believe you'd mess this up. its hard to trust u now.
with all the lies, the pain you cause, just to stay in play.
in this game of yours,
your the pitcher.
I'm the batter.
you, control the game.
toast:
to love that is addicting.
to tears that i have cried
to all my nights spent waiting, and all the things ive tried,
for us to stay together,
for us to make things right.
to all the times you told your friends, your just in it for the nights.
to all the times I've asked about it,
and all the the times you lied.
to every time i heard it,
to every time i cried.
to that one night i listened in, on a call you made to her.
to every word you said,
to every word i heard.
Modified by notlovedbyu22
i hate how when i think of us, i see her standing there,
and when i ask about her, you say you never cared.
that was just a lie, and now i really know, how you feel about her and how YOU let me go.
-how she was more important than i would ever be
and now i wish i would have left, but instead i came to see, the love you had for her, yet the love you gave to me.
i hate that feeling, when you know your second best.
its like someone took the heart and ripped it from your chest.
when it hurts that bad all you do is cry, you put on a front yet you wanna say good-bye.
to the one you really love, who never loved you back.
its like they took a knife and put it in your back.its hard to smile, and hard to laugh.
i manage to fake it, yet all the feelings they come back.
over and over again, its the same old freakin crap.
we get close, we mess up, and now i really know, that the love you gave to me, was really just a show.
i know now, and now i know for sure.
your a damn good liar and i hate that it was her...