He probably stayed outside the hospital room when your mum gave birth to you because he was scared and helpless.
He probably wants to do right by you, but doesn't know how. None of us are born knowing anything, but learn these skills in life. If he had no-one to show him how to be strong. How to say "No" to badassess and how to be a good father. Did he have a good father? I'm sure your father loves you but doesn't know how to show you. Why don't you write to him while he's in jail so he knows you love him and you can get to know him slowly?
He will so look forward to receiving your letters.
My dad YALL WHAT DO I DO DIS IS MY STORY ABOUT MY DAD AKA DIDDY
MY DAD WAS NEVER REALLY THERE FOR ME HE LISTENED VERY RARELY HE WAS BARELY THERE 4 ME AND HE STAYED OUTSIDE THE HOSPITAL ROOM WHEN MY MOM WAS GIVEING BIRTH TO ME AND HE ONLY CHANGED MY DIAPER ONE AND HE DIDNT ANY MORE CUZ I PEED ON HIM ONCE AND HE WAS ONLY HOME EVERY SO OFTEN HE WAS IN AND OUTTA JAIL EVERY SINCE THE DAY I WAS BORN AND NOW IM 13 AND NOW HE IS IN JAIL AGAIN AND HE IS IN JAIL AND HIS BIRTHDAY IS CUMING UP AND HE WILL B IN JAIL 4 MY BDAY BUT HE WILL MISS MY BIRFDAY AND HE IS HEADED TO PRISON 108 MONTHS DADDY I HOPE UR A CANGED MANN WHEN U GET OUT AND DONT HANG OUT WITH THOSE DUMBASSES AGAIN