Abuse, Death, Redemption
Part 1: The Abuse
I open my eyes, waking from another nightmare
To find myself in
another horrid dream
Drugs coursing through my veins, escape my
only care
Yet even in this world I can only scream
Unable to
flee from this torturing pain
My fragile mind breaking, crumbling
down
Being driven slowly mad and insane
Mouth a gape, yet out
comes no sound
This drug becoming my life, my key to bliss
The needles, just a sweet venomous kiss
Being consumed, inwards by my consuming lust
Thirsting for the fleeing freedom of this drug
Trapped in my mind, even myself I do not trust
Wrapped in these illusions, a suffocating hug
Yet still I cannot escape, I cannot run from drug's allure
They have possessed me, shackled, chained my soul
In my mind I surrended, given up on finding the cure
For I am now nothing but a slave, a fool, burnt up coal
Part 2: The end
I am so tired, these nights and days wear on me
My mind is so clouded, I cannot see any more
I know it is this drug, I know I must flee
Desperation and fear flood in me, to my core
Wanting to have one last moment of control
Wanting to at least say when I die, when I expire
A knife, the tool of my release, to free my soul
Agonizing pain, searing along my arms, fire
Blood oozing through these crimson lines I make
The knife dancing savagely through my flesh
Feeling my life growing weaker, I begin to quake
My body covered in a living, bloody mesh
Yet more of my life empties, pools around me
Unable to move, weariness smothers over my mind
Laying in this blood, my blood, now a darkened sea
Eyes drooping, my heart dimming, death now signed
Yet still in these last moments I hang on to life
Unable to let go so easily against this crushing pain
Even though life had so much suffering and strife
Even though my life was dull, ordinary and plain
Clutching with useless hands, trying to save myself
Blood still flowing between my fingers, pooling
Each second I lasted was an my unknown wealth
I lay there, knowing it was over, who was I fooling
Unable to hold onto my soul, I let myself go
Darkness consuming my vision and mind
So weak I was, I never really tried to know
To find this life's answer, to find my flow
A Four part Poem I am making... ^.^" kinda taking a while cause I can't think of the next two parts, or to be more precise, how to start them... o well!