Its been a year that i been living in pain. I've tried to move on thinking that it happen because God wanted me to get the best and give me the one whom I deserve.
I remember the day we become together, that day i though was the happiest moment of my life because im a fool in loving you, foolishly inlove that even my parents couldnt stop me for fighting the love that I feel for you. My parents doesnt like the way you are, but it does not the hindrance and i still fighting for that love. I want to prove to my parents that they are wrong because I believe that they would see the other side of you. Maybe I was just blind believing in what you had said to me, the flowery words that melt me, the sweet words of promise that I Hold on and thought that it would come true.
I remember the day you said we have to get married, but i refuse because I know we are not prepared yet to that kind of life, and one of us promise that we have to find ways so that we can have our own life. I walk away but its not that I walk away with you but I move just because I want to find ways that made us realized our dreams, but now as i see it, i am just only the one dreaming because all you said is just a lie, a promise that was only made to be broken.
Days of hardwork, days of endless pressure but its not the thing that stop me because i thought that someday we could be together and build our own.
I had given you everything I can, I give you my promise that i will help you to achieve your dreams but maybe a long distance relationship doesnt work out, you become the one whom I never know.
The saddest part in my life is being fooled by you, i thought i know you, because we have the promise that if one of us will fall out of love and find someone knew would tell each other because i am open and honest to you and i want the same with you. But maybe i was so kind and you abuse me. Girls your with always text me, saying a words that couldnt be eat by someone. Texting me how dare I am not knowing who I am to your life. I don't know why did she text me that way, i don't know her and all my fault maybe is i was really inlove with my so called bf.
i been praying that hope someday you will know how to thank me for the things that I give you. and i never prayed that you will get the misfortunes of your life because i wish you all the luck.
After a long days of frustration and sadness, there comes hope., that give light to my life. Hope that give me the courage to move on and let go of things that makes me sad and furious. I realized that i been a fool for so many months, dreaming that someday we will build a happy life. a life that is perfect and wonderful. But this dreams i know wouldnt come true.