University is suppose to be the place whereu set out your destiny
But let me tell you my view personally cusuniversity as only worsened me
You get out what you put in, simple asthat, but the temptations of a student life are too hard to combat
I’m Struggling to get my life on track, setbacksoften appear,i know i’ts the motivation i lack , and too me thats clear
I fear I’m gonna just let it go, I’ve hadmy chance, a chance I’ve blown, and allalong I’ve known, I’ve let myself down and I ain’t grown.
Butwho am i to moan i put myself in this predicament, my family show care n lovebut I don’t need this medicament. N i wish i could reciprocate but i can’t, mylife disintegrate, i just feel inadequate, they’d be better off without me, aghost left to haunt.
N it’s not that i don’t want to, its that ifeel i cant , inadequate feeling they i aren’t n i never will be, , its justnot who i am n i stand here in guilt , ive failed my family and myself ,n iveruined my career and my health,
and i may appear to not care but stare longenough into my eyes and its there, distraught dissatisfied embraced by selfhate
Im not expecting people to relate , butthere must of been a time where you look at mirror and feel pure hate,disgraced at urself knowing your just like the people of the unemployment rate,I’M not saying it was my fate but its too late to change
Rearrange the way im living, give back whati get given, thats all i want to do proof to myself its worth living i want myparents to receive a whole year of thanksgiving.
My past aint that great n my futures lookin the same
N i hate to admit but im the only one to blame
Below average credentials, working 5% of my potential
But Its essential that i try to break these chains
N experience a life of benefit n gains
Still needing support, hurting the peoplewho have faith in me, knowing I’ve let them down considerably, and the onlyperson to blame is me. i hate myself , ihate what ive become, i hate this waster scum they were once proud to calltheir son.
Sat here its clear i fear what ive become ,ma tears left here to dry up in the sun
Sat here its clear i fear what ive become,my tears left here to dry up in the sun
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