I pushed you away when I needed you most,
I know all you did was care, and all I could do was cause you hurt,
I just didn't know what to do, or know where to go,
I was in such a mess, I was out of control,
I didn't want anyone to see me this way.
I remember the day I got the news that brought me to my knees,
The doctor called me into his room and told me I had the big C,
I had my head in my hands, my life was shattered,
I didn't know where to turn, I felt all alone,
I kept it to myself and I thought I could handle it on my own.
All I did was hurt you, I know all you wanted to do was help,
Every day you lifted me up with all your beautiful texts,
I ignored your calls,I caused you pain, and still you showed you care,
I just wish I could turn back the time, and let you know, I know you are there.
I went to the Hospital and they told me what's going to happen,
I thought I would be leaving with one bollock missing,
But all that I needed was to remove a tiny lump, they said it was an easy thing.
After some medication, some keymo too, I was feeling down and out,
Every night i went to sleep i was wondering if i'd ever wake up,
I knew you are always there, I knew you always cared,
Just the way I was feeling, and the thoughts that were in my head,
I didn't want to know anymore, I just wish that I was dead.
I was so depressed, I was past being scared, I didn't have much to live for,
Even though I knew you were always there, all I could do was hurt you.
I regret the way I treated you, I know it wasn't something you deserved,
I know I made your life so bad, Even telling you that we were finished.
I remember that day I called you and I told you it was over,
That was the biggest mistake I ever made, it hurt more than the bloody Cancer.
I called you back that night, and told you how I felt, and with all the tears and hurt I caused,
I asked you back, and thank god! Yes was your answer.
I will never forget the way I treated you, I will never forgive myself for that ever,
But one thing is for sure, my love for you will be forever.
You brought me out of my depression, you give me a reason to live,
I just wish I treated you better, because I know I have a lot of love to give