crystina456

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i'm not a girly girl abercrombie model but i'm not scene and rugged. i'm not quiet but i'm not annoying. i'm not anorexic skinny but i'm not obese fat. i like money but i'd rather do something i love for a living. like music or art or music. boyfriends are cool and all but i don't really care either way right now. i laugh when i should be quiet. i'm quiet when things get too loud. i dont talk to strangers. i have a hard time remembering names. but i remember the weird ones. i love the rain. i hate the wind. i'm get straight a's but really stupid stuff confuses me. like direction giving. i can sing and play my instruments... when no one's listening. i'm analytical but i don't like being analyzed. i get a lot of compliments but i don't know how to take them. i laugh at my own jokes. i don't care what others think. but i'm typing this now. i'm good with words but i suck at ending things like these. so here you go. this is the end.
I AM..SHORT, NAIVE, PARANIOD, DRIVEN, HOPELESS ROMANTIC
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Heart ache comes, and heart ache goes, the pieces rearrange,
Never knowing where they'll fall, the greatest pain is change.
And even though we hate the fear, of losing the same,
If not now, we'll soon regret, the memories that we blame.
If you have never loved and lost, or never loved at all,
Then here's advice I give to you, stop before you fall.
How horrible this thought may be, how dare this person writes,
Because she knows the greatest pain, and gone some sleepless
nights.
To watch the clock count endlessly, the time you have to wait,
Before you get the chance to tell your love that you were fait.
And even then, the time is wrong, your heart shot down again,
There won't be a second chance, this time, this is the end.
Could this be real, or is it fake, please don't decieve me ears,
For i would love him endlessly, well beyond my living years.
Or was it not my ears that failed, but my heart who is at
fault,
And if that's so then what to do, but lock it in a vault.
A day goes by, and then another, and now he wants to meet,
If i could give him, what he needs, I'd bow right at his feet.
He kissed me, more passion now, more than i could recall,
I'll give you all that i have now, my soul and my heart and all.
I'm ten times stronger, than i was, with lips and warm
embrace,
The happiest, I'ld ever felt, your hands wrapped around my
face.
And i love you, was thrown around, you're now my boy once
more,
But then the next day comes about, it's not like the day
before.
My heart it aches, you just don't know, what we should really
be,
I know that you're the one i love, you've meant the most to
me.
And after what we've shared and all, I can't just be your
friend,
The thought of another, in your life, now that would be my
end.
You tell me that we must move on, it hurts so much to hear,
A second time I've been shot down, this was my only fear.
And so I push, with little strength, to get through every day,
I finally get some happy thoughts, and now im on my way.
Suddenly, the phone rings, its you who's on the line,
"i cannot be here, without you, I want you one more time."
If only he had said these words, a week or two ago,
I would have replied, with a yes, but this time i just dont know.
So sweet he sounds, just like before, I saw this in my dreams,
So good it felt, my heart no longer tearing at the seams.
But if a yes, I set myself a greater fall than was before,
But if a no, I loose the one my heart so much adores.
We talked so much, our problems fixed, thank you god i pray,
He asked me out, my answer yes, love won this all the way.
I breathe him in, the purest breath, ive never had such air.
A few days past, in love again, each day i love him more,
But then one day, a fight begins, he feels just like before.
I wanted to be healed from pain, but I didn't do it right,
So i though, what's best for him, I gave up without a fight.
I said it's fine, I smiled bright, not a single word was true,
It hurts now, to hear this part, but this would be my doom.
"Don't talk to me, don't call or write," at this i almost cried,
"I'll do better without you," with every breath i died.
And if it's best i let him go, then pain shall follow in his place,
I'll give him up, to make him happy, and wipe the tears down
off my face.
One day I hope, that he will say. " I Can't believe I let love
go,"
"A love so pure, a love so soft, a love I'll never know."

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A double heart, two different faces, each of which you hide,
You show me one, its not the truth, the other deep inside.
I never knew, you had this face, one full of hate and pride,
Before i sa, your colors true, I never thought you lied.
For every coin, two faces seen, one show more than the other,
Though good on one, I never thought, that there could be another.
Blind sided by the truthful face, the next ill soon discover,
The marks you left, the pain I felt, from this i wont recover.
Becoming what, I almost feared, too god it always seems,
I live in torment, no happy thoughts, my face no longer beems.
A million people, just like me, who now have haunted dreams.
A million others, just like me, placed on, uneven teams.
I only wanted the truth from you, but the truth i must create,
You please the crowd, you fake a smile, you xhake the hands you hate.
Its up to you how you live your life, I will not share in your grim fate.
For I am stronger, without you, youll eat whats on your plate.
Remember when you touched my face, and looked straight in my eyes,
You said the sweet things to me, these words were empty lies.
And even though they echo still, each word as sharp as knives,
To think those words had come from you, you're now what i despise.

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