You make it hard to love you.
It's true you know, we have told you before.
But you don't seem to care.
I don't understand, you clam to want to be loved, but your actions speak other wise.
Others say its because you don't feel loved you rebel, but what are we doing wrong that makes you feel that way?
You ask, we give, but when we give, you spit.
You curse at the ones who love you, what are we not doing?
Is it because we can't afford the biggest and best things TV shows you? Or the fact you have to make sacrifices to eat a healthy meal?
We give you a home, food, and not junk. We can't buy you the coolest toys, or games. But we can give you what you need-and we tell you we love you, we give you hugs, and kisses. Yet its never enough for you.
You whine your friend has a new Wii and we hate you because for your birthday we couldn't do much but get you a used and refurbished x-box, and not the 360 one you wanted.
You make it hard to love you because you seem to only give hate where we try to give you love. Why must you treat others like dirt? Why give such little to no respect to your elders?
You make grandma cry, you make grandpa feel hopeless in helping you grow to be a good man.
You make your mom mad and hurt, and your father, well he's just as bad as you. But unlike you your dad does not do it on purpose. You would be a bit bitter too if half your brain was fried and it made life harder for you.
No one beats you but I can't help but feel maybe we should. Other people would with a kid like you.
I know, I have talked to them.
But we wont-and maybe its a mistake--but your to old to be hit aren't you? At least the government thinks so, and calls it child abuse.
So we wont, but it doesn't make it any better on either of us.
Because I fear the older you get the worse you will also get.....
I just pray you don't stay this way....
We have enough bad people in the world,
I don't wish for you to be part of them.
A/N: True Story dealing with a family member.
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