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I am me, simply as that.... there is a girl in my life, but there are boundaries between us, and while in a global perspective we are not that far apart... we might as well be half way around the world from eachother cause where im at, i cant get to her
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its been year
falling,hurting, laughing, screaming
overcoming every fear
in love so much it hurts, learning
about you, about me
wishing everyone could just see
hard decisions, harder consequences
dreaming, tearing down walls and fences
holding each other tight when we cried
thinking that if we couldn't see each other we might just die
growing up and falling apart
knowing this was right from the start
doubting and finding out that we never had to
trusting each other and myself too
feeling like shit when you were so hurt and i couldn't do a thing
did i mention laughing so hard we hurt
feeling low feeling like dirt
its been up its been down
but through it all its shown
that whether i'm here, or some where else
this is not false
i've learned more about myself then i thought humanly possible
i've learned more about you then i thought humanly possible
we played 21 questions for 7 months straight
we dealt with love, and with hate
with anger, sadness and anguish
its been hard and if i had one wish
i wouldn't change a single thing, right wrong or indifferent
not a single moment
because through it all i have learned, and loved
and i am still learning to love
myself but one thing is for sure
i love you forever.....
i want this, i want the work the pain
the fun and the gain
i want everything about you
i want you forever its true
its been a year
may many more be near

,

its three A.M. and im thinking of you
looking back on all that we used to do
its been way to long since ive seen you
my thoughts are always with you its true
but now especially as i sit in this basement watching random movies
i remember how we would sit and watch randomnosities
on the couch cuddled up, or i think of how every night
i wish i could feel you on my right
holding you is a constant wish
and without you i feel like a landlocked fish
why cant you be here i wonder
and then as my thoughts wander
i realize that it is not because of you or me
its because of this ridiculous animosity
towards a number, an age, towards something that matters not in the end
if it were up to me, right this minute id call you my girlfriend
whether i have to sleep in a tent tonight
doesnt matter, i just wanna make things right
and the ONLY thing thats ever felt right
was your hand in mine, a kiss upon the lips, and a promise of forever
with you, so let it never
be said that i had no defiance when i ask you this
will you be mine? if so seal it with a kiss.......

make it through, for me....
hold on, for me
when i cant be there by your side
remember in truth im still inside
if im still in your heart im still there with you
your still in mine its true
across the world, or holding you
remember always... what i feel is true

I reached the top of this hill today, and all around the mountains stand
blocking views of the sorrounding lands
but i still know you are there, calling to me
like a light house across a stormy sea
I am on this road, and i know not whether it is short or long
but in my heart i can hear this song
it is everything to me
it is all i am meant to be
and though my destination i cannot view
i know that it is there that i will see you
so whether on this road i am weary
i will tredge on, holding to a memory
by a cool refreshing river, i found truth and strength
and it is with me at any length
so watch for me coming
at night and in the morning
walking down this path of fate
my only regret, is that i am late

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