I have never really fitted in with everyday life. I have not figured out why or for what reason. But one thing I know is that I want acceptance. Maybe it is my destiny not to fit in, or maybe it was God making me like this. Whatever the reasons I can only trust they were for my own good. And also whatever the reasons I cannot change the way I am. Not for anybody. I am who I am and I am proud of it.
People have called me stupid ever since I started school, or they would call me poor because of the way I dressed. I didn’t care what those people thought about me. I used their insults to make me stronger and prouder of myself. The other kid’s never picked me until last to be on their sports team. But if I was picked as a captain I would always pick them.
People have always tried to fight me but what is the point of conflict without a good reason. The only time I fight, is to fight for life and fight for survival. There would only be one other thing that I would fight for and that is for the people I love, family, friends, and other loved ones. People say we all should fight for humanity. If there wasn’t so much war in the world we wouldn’t have to would we?
Can any one answer my question of why I have never fitted in to everyday life? Is it destiny, the way God made me, or something that I have done or am doing?
It is not that I am afraid of or fear being alone it is the fact that there are only three people in the world who actually do accept me for who I am, they are my grandparents and I. Everybody else thinks they accept me but they don’t because they want something in me to change so that I can be who they want me to be. Not who I want to be.
So if you can answer that and make me fit in with someone other than my closest family, please tell me.