Vince Guanzon

just your normal average guy. just graduated from college. i love reading as well as writng poems.
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as consciousness arrives, i see dark gray skies
trying shake the sleep away from my eyes
i know this day will be incomplete. that part is true
i know that because it'll be another day without you.

i reach for your picture, yes its hidden somewhere near me..
because truly without you, that i can never be.
i see a picture of us laughing, so happy..
and i also know that these days the guy that makes you laugh isn't me..

i replay our memories, i go to that place..
where all i think about, all i ever see is you face
but these days all i see are shades of grey..
its been like that, always like that, e'er since you went away..

i hear a knock on the door, i know that will never be you..
i see her face, i wish i was looking at you..
i hold her hand, i wish i was holding you..

i know i will eventually love her..i pray what i say is right
soon the colors that were gone will return to my sight
i pray that im right, i wish what im saying is right!

but can i say one last thing, something i know is true
until my heart stops beating, i will always, always, wish for you..

I wander through the monotony that is my life, amidst the chaos of black and white..
every action seems mechanical, every event totally predictable, my every response, automatic.
I struggle through limbo, wishing,hoping,praying for something to snap me out of this reverie..
hoping for the proverbial sign from above, the divine hand slapping some color to this bland existence..
pushing me onwards to better things. watching and nodding with some satisfaction as i grope my way out of this darkness, stumbling, falling,
but inching forward..out of the dark as i slowly emerge and stare unblinkingly at the burning light of something newer,
something better, something utterly perfect…
and knowing that this time it is meant for me.

, ,

a windswept morning, skies dark and gloomy
it seemed like a forecast of what my day would be like
drab and routine..
i brace myself for the continuous monotony
of the life she left with her absence
a trickle of rain to hide the tears,
a strong wind as a reason for me to look down
my heavy heart looking for some purpose
my soul searching for the light
struggling against the darkness she left behind
the colors in hues of black and grey
me eating but not really tasting
the routine i do all seems mechanical
a struggle  just to make it through the day
me gasping for air
as i struggle to get by without her
so here i stay
with all my self induced suffering
my thoughts all about her
holding on to the pain she left
because as pathetic as it sounds
THIS PAIN is all that's left that, in the remotest sense,
connects me to her
and id rather have that than nothing at all..

in the stillness of the night
all my heartaches and yearning
are you deaf to my heart?
cant you hear it screaming
calling your name, wanting you here
wishing you were close
wanting to hold you near..
ever since you left..only one thing was made clear..
that without you here with me
the colors all dissapear
so stay with me girl
and make it all okay
i promise ill love you
more and more each day.. :D

How slowly time passes when you arent by my side minutes to hours i spend each in pain knowing that like the mist that hangs over mountains this sorrow too shall lift when my searching eyes find the light that is you znd it will fill with joyful tears as we succumb to an embrace that i pray shall never end
everywhere i go the wind seems to whisper your name.. whispering then screaming it just drives me insane i curl up in the corner and pray for this to pass why does this feeling stay why does my love for you last? a year and a day has past since you left my heart breaking why oh why did you leave my soul aching for just one last touch just one last kiss why oh why love did you leave me like this? was it something i said? or something i did? i showed you all my feeling, and not one of them i hid.. oh now that youre gone i just dont know what to do.. my heart keeps on breaking and all i want is just you cause i know that this pain here the one deep inside thae one that has scarred me the one i try to hide you are its cause but ironically you are the cure my heart calls out for you it knows you are all it needs of that i am sure so why dont you come back love and make me live once again forever well be together for now till the end. i still love you till this very day.. baby come back Modified by binth32
fall in love? nah.. id rather get drunk.. because a throbbing head and a parched throat is a hell of a lot better than a broken heart.
the sunset blazes across the horizon bathing my room in its irredescent colours rousing me from the solace of my dreams bringing me back to the harsh and painful reality that another day will be spent without you i blink the sleep away from my eyes and i try to focus on the picture beside my bed hazy at first, i gradually see your smiling face and as i realize that you still take my breath away i wish the world that you were still mine ill get rid of that picture today..i say but my mind scoffs at me, for it knows the reality it knows the truth behind my lies.. that i could never do that that i still cant let you go the day goes by like all the others filled with bleakness, going by like a blur filled with black and grey still unable to see the beauty of the life around me for you are all my eyes want to see and my heart seeks only you.. the sunset comes like the sunrise with a beauty i am still unable to appreciate. for all i see is another signal of an empty day of a promise of another empty night filled with emptiness, filled with your immortal i lie in bed and wait for the silence to overcome my senses i welcome the unconsciousness for only in dreams will i find my painless solitude only in dreams will i find some peace for only in dreams will i have you again..
the sunset blazes across the horizon bathing my room in its iridescent colors rousing me from the solace of my dreams bringing me back to the harsh and painful reality that another day will be spent without you i blink the sleep away from my eyes and i try to focus on the picture beside my bed hazy at first, i gradually see your smiling face and as i realize that you still take my breath away i wish the world that you were still mine ill get rid of that picture today..i say but my mind scoffs at me, for it knows the reality it knows the truth behind my lies.. that i could never do that that i still cant let you go the day goes by like all the others filled with bleakness, going by like a blur filled with black and Grey still unable to see the beauty of the life around me for you are all my eyes want to see and my heart seeks only you.. the sunset comes like the sunrise with a beauty i am still unable to appreciate. for all i see is another signal of an empty day of a promise of another empty night filled with emptiness, filled with your immortal i lie in bed and wait for the silence to overcome my senses i welcome the unconsciousness for only in dreams will i find my painless solitude only in dreams will i find some peace for only in dreams will i have you again..
the sunset blazes across the horizon bathing my room in its irredescent colours rousing me from the solace of my dreams bringing me back to the harsh and painful reality that another day will be spent without you i blink the sleep away from my eyes and i try to focus on the picture beside my bed hazy at first, i gradually see your smiling face and as i realize that you still take my breath away i wish the world that you were still mine ill get rid of that picture today..i say but my mind scoffs at me, for it knows the reality it knows the truth behind my lies.. that i could never do that that i still cant let you go the day goes by like all the others filled with bleakness, going by like a blur filled with black and grey still unable to see the beauty of the life around me for you are all my eyes want to see and my heart seeks only you.. the sunset comes like the sunrise with a beauty i am still unable to appreciate. for all i see is another signal of an empty day of a promise of another empty night filled with emptiness, filled with your immortal i lie in bed and wait for the silence to overcome my senses i welcome the unconsciousness for only in dreams will i find my painless solitude only in dreams will i find some peace only in dreams will i have you again..
the sunset blazes across the horizon bathing my room in its irredescent colours rousing me from the solace of my dreams bringing me back to the harsh and painful reality that another day will be spent without you i blink the sleep away from my eyes and i try to focus on the picture beside my bed hazy at first, i gradually see your smiling face and as i realize that you still take my breath away i wish the world that you were still mine ill get rid of that picture today..i say but my mind scoffs at me, for it knows the reality it knows the truth behind my lies.. that i could never do that that i still cant let you go the day goes by like all the others filled with bleakness, going by like a blur filled with black and grey still unable to see the beauty of the life around me for you are all my eyes want to see and my heart seeks only you.. the sunset comes like the sunrise with a beauty i am still unable to appreciate. for all i see is another signal of an empty day of a promise of another empty night filled with emptiness, filled with your immortal i lie in bed and wait for the silence to overcome my senses i welcome the unconsciousness for only in dreams will i find my painless solitude only in dreams will i find some peace only in dreams will i have you again..
the sunset blazes across the horizon bathing my room in its irredescent colours rousing me from the solace of my dreams bringing me back to the harsh and painful reality that another day will be spent without you i blink the sleep away from my eyes and i try to focus on the picture beside my bed hazy at first, i gradually see your smiling face and as i realize that you still take my breath away i wish the world that you were still mine ill get rid of that picture today..i say but my mind scoffs at me, for it knows the reality it knows the truth behind my lies.. that i could never do that that i still cant let you go the day goes by like all the others filled with bleakness, going by like a blur filled with black and grey still unable to see the beauty of the life around me for you are all my eyes want to see and my heart seeks only you.. the sunset comes like the sunrise with a beauty i am still unable to appreciate. for all i see is another signal of an empty day of a promise of another empty night filled with emptiness, filled with your immortal i lie in bed and wait for the silence to overcome my senses i welcome the unconsciousness for only in dreams will i find my painless solitude only in dreams will i find some peace only in dreams will i have you again..
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