I want to be rememberd as a kind girl
But also one that would tell it as it is
One that always had kind things to say
But wouldn’t lie, no matter how brutal it maybe
I want to be rememberd as a happy girl
But also one that was filled with grief
One that was happy on the outside
But was mostly sad on the inside
I want to be rememberd as the active one
But who sat around often
One who loved playing sports
But that would do anything not to get up
I want to be rememberd as the polite girl
But also one that never liked manners
One that knew when to be polite
But would always stuff food into her mouth
But out of all those things
I want to be remembered as the girl who was herself
That no matter what life throw at her
She would stand true to herself and always let her colors show
This is a girl everyone thinks they know,
A girl who can make anyone smile, and most of the time laugh.
A girl who is always there to cheer you up,
Always wanting to help out.
The girl everyone thinks they know.
No one knows how she sits alone,
How she cries at night
Staring out the window as the tears roll down her cheeks.
Wanting to be someone's someone,
Waiting for the guy she loves with all of her heart,
To even notice he is ripping hers apart.
She walks alone down the street,
Seeing the love on the faces of passing couples
And all she wants is to feel just a tiny bit of that love.
But wish as she does, it just never comes.
The story of a girl who everyone thinks they know.
She sits alone on her bed,
Staring at a blank wall
While silent tears fall down her face.
She asks herself if life is really worth all the pain she feels inside.
And as she picks up the blade
The tears fall faster down her face.
As she thinks back at her painful past,
Thinks about all her masks
Of all the people who think they know her.
He comes up in her mind
Blurring her eyes and tearing her heart,
She silently makes a nik with the knife.
The blood runs down her wrist and she screams out,
Tears falling on her hands.
The phone rings through her whimpers of pain,
One of the people who think they know her, is what she says.
She looks down at the knife,
Listening to the phone ring
She makes a quick swipe,
Tears run down her face, and blood runs down her arm.
Her last thought was of him,
How he ripped her heart in two.
Waiting for him, while he never came through.
And as she drifts away,
His voice is on the answering machine
Finally, saying those three little words.
He came and found her that way,
Her tears still wet on her face.
And as he cried, he finally knew...
This lonely girl,
No one knew.
When tomorrow starts without you
What we’ve got to understand
Is that an angel came and called your name
Then took you by the hand
I know how much you loved life
As much as life loved you
And each time you think of us down here
I know you’ll miss us too
He said your place was ready
In heaven far above
And that you’d have to leave behind
All those you dearly love
But as you turned to walk away
Many tears were sadly shed
But fond memories we will keep of you
In heart in soul in head
I know you wish we wouldn’t cry
Or hurt in anyway
So we’ll treasure precious memories
To help us through the day
So when tomorrow starts without you
We won’t be far apart
For every time we need you
We’ll look into our heart
As I say goodbye to you my friend
There is something you should always know
If ever you’re feeling lonely
If ever you’re feeling low
Just think of a special place
Somewhere you always wanted to go
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If ever you’re feeling in need
Maybe just a hug, or chat, or even a cry
I will be right here for you
Your tears my friend I will always dry
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If ever life feels like it’s just too much
Maybe you just need a helping hand
Always think of me in your mind
Then look beside you, its there I will stand
Cause you my friend I will walk beside hand in hand
if you see me walking with someone else,
its not because i love him,
its because you wernt brave enough to walk beside me.
if you see me smiling its not because i have forgotten about you,
its because im tired of crying over you.
if you see me living again,
its not because i want to get back at you its because i want to get back what you took from me.
BUT most of all, if i fall in love with someone else,
its not because i wanted to, its because you were never there to catch me and love me back.
Altho it was two years ago,
you left me broken and confussed,
But i let you walk back into my life,
to try and hide the bruise.
my world had fallen apart,
after you left me there that night,
what was i ment to think?
what was i ment to say?
you left without a single word,
and left me there to fade.
i thought i was finally over you.
the fellings had gone away,
untill you walked past me the very next day.
you stopped and said 'hi' and asked me how id been,
i lied and said i was fine, and that life was going great,
you looked sad at my response,
i know i shouldnt have asked why, but i did.
you said 'because i finally realised i love you, and im scared iv lost you'
at that moment i couldnt lie i had to tell you,
that i love you and miss u too.
dont ever leave me like that again, i love you so much and i have finally realised what iv been missing now that i have you again.forever yours xxx