You wouldn't know this. You were too small.
But I remember everything.
I was there the day you were born.
Patiently pacing the halls.
I wanted so badly to see you.
The mothers and childs heartrates have both dropped.
In those few seconds the world stopped.
Those seconds turned into a time of prayer.
A prayer for you
And mommy
Please God keep them both safe.
Please don't let anything happen to him.
The seconds turned into minutes
They have both become stable
Thank you God.
You was born with little complications
Your heavenly daddy was watching out for you.
Yes I believe in love at first site.
From the moment I saw you I was in love with you.
You looked up at me with those small blue eyes
And ever since then I've been hooked.
You come to me wanting a cookie
and flash those blue sparks at me
Oh if only you knew how hard it is to say no to them.
Your first word was not mommy or daddy
but nan-nell
( close enough for me)
I've watched you sleep at night
Watching your small chest rise and fall
When you whimpered I always found myself wondering why
Did the yelling follow you into your dreams?
Did you miss your daddy constantly gone for work?
Or was it just the boogieman?
I'll never know
You were far too young to remember
but during those times I held your hand
and told you it would be okay
I was your protector into the night
never leaving your side.
Your easy for me to love.
Your years have passed in the blink of an eye
I wish I could slow you down
Once a small child I had held in my arms
Now he is up to my waist.
Teething rings and diaper changes all gone with the small clothes
If only I could show you how much you mean to me.
I would lay down my life
If yours was ever in danger
You deserve to have your dreams come true
The world owes you nothing
this you must learn.
So make something of yourself
Please?
Someone I would be proud of
But this is my wish to you
I wish for you to find your way in life
With Jesus by your side.
Treat your wife right.
And be a good father to your kids.
Do the right thing when no one is looking.
My nephew you are
My nephew you will always be.
This I want you to know
I love you with my entire heart.
Remember me
I gave you me
Not all of who I am
More than I have ever let go
I find it hard to trust people
You quickly found that out
Give me time is all I said
But It's all I needed to say.
So as the time passed I began to trust
I began to share with you what my heart contains.
My dreams and what I wanted to be
My flaws and how I couldn't seem to fix me
You filled me with knowledge that was painful to get
We trusted each other
But somewhere in the midst of all of this
You decided you were through.
You didn't need me anymore
Filling my mind with Hope and Love
I let my walls down to let you in
To show that you meant so much
My praise and compliments were a drug to you
You became addicted.
I gave you me
Not all of who I am
My past and all that it contains.
It told me to be careful
Don't ever expose all of who you are
Never fully trust
Your just setting yourself up to a great deal of pain and disappointment.
These thoughts constantly filled my mind.
For the first time I went against what was normal.
For me
I had to know if there were anybody out there who was unlike all others
Someone I could be me around
Not the me with all the walls.
Me with all the barriers broken.
Exposing who I really am meant to be.
Something about you gave me Hope to believe.
Their not all the same.
They won't all play with my emotions.
Our relationship changed.
With one small lie you proved me right.
You are all the same.
You use me to get what you want
Then get rid of me
I gave you me.
Expecting something abnormal.
Tell me the truth.
There really isn't such a thing is there?
I needed a friend.
You are my foe.
What is love to you? This is a question that constantly is asked but never really answered. I have a problem with love. Not really a problem but it's how I love. I love enough to hurt. I care so much about the people around me that it hurts me when they have problems that they can't solve. So what does love mean to you or Do you love enough to hurt?
I am going to start doing this thing to where every day or every other day I will ask a question that I would love to have responses back from. Today's question: What makes life worth pursuing to you? I would love to hear your responses so please reply to this question.