Empty, numb cold all alone
No one to talk to, not even on the phone
Time passes, feelings never fade
Emptiness grows, leaving life in the shade.
I'm numb im life less, im cold and weak
So much so, it hurts to speak
I'm afraid to trust, not allowed to live
Locked up in my home with nothing to give.
It's not your fault, I abused your trust
Let you down, fucked you over but by needs must.
I cant make this right, the damage is done.
But I miss you dearly my second mum
Stuck in the middle, you had to choose
I know that now, I was bound to loose
But fighting so much, against a few
Has left me weak and needing you.
I guess what I mean, or want to say
Is I miss you dearly in every way.
I don't expect change, I just needed you to know.
I love you .. .
I'm so sorry. . . I never meant to hurt you.