Take a deep breath
close my eyes.
Try not to remember how he felt between my thighs.
His strong chiseled body gleaming in the moon's light.
I notice my pulse begin to rise
I fight with all my might to remain in control though I've gone amiss
Remembering his soft touch
His supple kiss.
Inhale slowly.
Deeply exhale.
(TO THE TUNE OF GEORGE HARRISON'S SOMETHING)
SOMETHING IN THE WAY HOW GOD MOVES
MAKES ME FEEL SAFE LIKE NO OTHER
SOMETHING IN THE WAY HOW GOD MOVES ME
MAKES ME FALL ON MY KNEES AND BOW
AND WORSHIP HIM HERE AND NOW
SOMETHING IN THE WAY HOW GOD MOVES
FULFILLS ME UNLIKE ANY OTHER
SOMETHING IN THE WAY HOW GOD LOVES ME
MAKES ME FALL ON MY KNEES AND BOW
AND WORSHIP HIM HERE AND NOW
YOU’RE ASKING ME HOW CAN YOU KNOW?
DEEP IN MY HEART THAT’S HOW I KNOW!
JUST BELIEVE THEN YOU WILL KNOW
JUST BELIEVE THEN YOUR FAITH WILL GROW
SOMETHING IN THE WAY HOW GOD KNOWS
ALL MY TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS
SOMETHING IN THE WAY HOW GOD LOVES ME
MAKES ME FALL ON MY KNEES AND BOW
AND WORSHIP HIM HERE AND NOW!
OH LORD MY GOD
MY HEART IS FULL AND I GIVE YOU PRAISE
FOR YOU HAVE GIVEN ME
THE STRENGTH TO MAKE IT THROUGH LATTER DAYS
HELP ME TO BE HUMBLE, OH MIGHTY GOD
THE CREATOR OF HEAVEN AND EARTH!
FOR YOU HAVE GIVEN ME NEW LIFE
AND PROVIDED ME A REBIRTH
FOR THY MERCY IS GREAT ABOVE
AND IT REACHES HERE BELOW
GRANT ME THE CHANCE TO SAY
IN MY VERY OWN WAY
JUST HOW GRATEFUL I WILL BE
WHEN I GET THE CHANCE TO WALK AGAIN WITH THEE!
OH JESUS CHRIST
YOU BLESSED ME WITH YOUR HOLY LOVE
AND HOW CAN I REPAY
THE DEBT YOU PAID JUST WITH YOUR BLOOD?
AND I'LL REMEMBER ALL YOUR WORDS
THAT YOU BURNED WITHIN MY HEART
AND I'LL REMEMBER HOW YOU LOVED ME
RIGHT FROM THE VERY START
FOR THY MERCY IS GREAT ABOVE
AND IT REACHES HERE BELOW
GRANT ME THE CHANCE TO SAY
IN MY VERY OWN WAY
JUST HOW GRATEFUL I WILL BE
WHEN I GET THE CHANCE TO WALK AGAIN WITH THEE!
IF I CLOSED MY EYES NOW
JUST TO IMAGINE THAT YOU'RE IN MY LIFE AGAIN
I WOULD CLOSE MY EYES FOREVER
JUST TO SEE THAT WE'RE TOGETHER
AND THIS TIME I KNOW THE DREAM WILL NEVER END!
WOULD YOU TRULY LOVE
IF YOU KNEW I WAS NOT THE GIRL YOU SEE
WOULD YOU TURN YOUR LOVE ASIDE
AND RUN AWAY AND HIDE
OR WOULD YOU MAKE ME OUT THE GIRL YOU'D WANT ME TO BE
YET STILL I LOVE YOU UNCONDITIONALLY.
I CAN BE THERE UNCONDITIONALLY
CAN YOU LOVE ME UNCONDITIONALLY?
WE WERE JUST TWO STRANGERS
WHO DECIDED NOT TO LIVE OUR LIFES ALONE
SO WE TOOK A CRAZY CHANCE
AND STARTED THIS ROMANCE
NEVER REALIZING THIS ROAD WOULD LEAD US HOME
AND EVEN THOUGH THERE'S PROBLEMS
WE WERE NEVER PROMISED A SHORT AND EASY RIDE
BUT IF WE LOOK UP TO THE SUN
AND LIVE OUR LIVES AS ONE
THEN ALL OUR FEARS AND WORRIES WILL SUBSIDE
YET STILL I LOVE YOU UNCONDITIONALLY.
I CAN BE THERE UNCONDITIONALLY
CAN YOU LOVE ME UNCONDITIONALLY?
SEEMS ALL I HAD WERE BROKEN PROMISES
SEEMS ALL I HAD WERE EMPTY WORDS THAT SAID
AND ALL THE WORDS THAT SCREAM INSIDE MY HEAD
AND ALL THE WHILE I'M TAKING YOU TO BED
SOMETHING DIFFERENT
FAR FROM OUR IMAGINATION
THAT WE BOTH KNEW, BETWEEN ME AND YOU
INFATUATION, SWEET TABOO
BUT WHAT WE THOUGHT WAS LOVE
WASN'T TRUE
WHAT DO I DO WITH ALL THE MEMORIES
WHAT DO I DO WITH THE WORDS YOU SAID TO ME
WHAT DO I DO WHEN I'M COLD AND ALL ALONE
WHAT DO I DO WITH THIS HOUSE THAT'S NOT A HOME
ITS SOMETHING DIFFERENT
FAR FROM OUR IMAGINATION
THAT WE BOTH KNEW BETWEEN ME AND YOU
INFATUATION, SWEET TABOO
SINCE WHAT WE THOUGHT WAS LOVE
WASN'T TRUE
AND NOW YOUR GONE AND THE WALLS ARE COLD AND BARE
AND NOW YOUR GONE AND I WONDER IF YOU CARED
AND NOW YOUR GONE AND I'M FILLED WITH MIXED RELIEF
AND NOW YOUR GONE AND THERE'S NOTHING LEFT BUT GRIEF
SO MUCH SOMETHING DIFFERENT
FAR FROM OUR IMAGINATION
THAT WE BOTH KNEW BETWEEN ME AND YOU
INFATUATION, SWEET TABOO
BECAUSE WHAT WE THOUGHT WAS LOVE
WASN'T TRUE
it seems as if just yesterday you were completely mine
i filled your thoughts, your every move and occupied your time
I was your all, you were my joy, our lives were so complete
love was our drug, we were addicted in totality.
but now the addiction has grown deadly therefore release me.
I do not want to yearn for your touch in the middle of the night
I do not want to wander who is holding you ever so tight
i do not want to remember the sweet sound of your labored breaths
of how wonderful it felt lying in your arms after being taken to my depths
or wishing I was lying in your arms, relaxing so peacefully
these thoughts are nothing but painful deadly longings therefore release me
Release me from the knowledge that there is still a spark
Release me from your face that I see behind my eyelids in the dark
Release me from the constant terror of never hearing your voice
or that I am not a priority, not the second or first choice.
Your love is confusing and tantalizing, engulfing me with agony
I cannot do this alone therefore release me.