What if I completely disappear?
Will somebody remember me?
What if I have friends?
But are they real to me?
What will they think of me?
When I’m dead and in grave
Will they cry for me?
Will the stand next to me?
Principles of lust
The dark night surrounds me
I love those who love me,
And those who seek me find me,
I can’t take it anymore,
There’s no reason for me to be alive,
The cross of changes,
That moves through the fair sky,
Inside I’m so pale,
It’s all my state of mind,
I can’t leave it all behind
Home that’s where I belong
The eyes of truth
That still finds me though
One mans dream
I’m surrounded in
I’m fragile, I’m in pain
I want to kill myself today
What’s the purpose of me to live?
The miracle of illusion,
Justifying me
Nobody loves me,
Nobody cares for me,
Not even my family,
Not even my friends,
Nobody there for me
When I’m in so much pain
My feelings are being hurt,
I’m writing you my suicidal note,
I don’t want to live like that
Where people criticizes me a lot
I don’t want to feel the pain
That is hurting my own vain
I just want to kill myself
And drain in my own bloody hell
I just want to take that knife
And to stab my heart inside
And to think of it I might
Don’t even feel the pain insight
The time has passed to midnight
I might just take that knife
I’m walking to the kitchen
And opening that door,
I’m picking up that knife
Not thinking what will come
And holding in my hands
I’m going to my room
To make a DVD
To give you my last words
“Don’t worry about me.”
My face is going to tears
I didn’t know what to think
I’m thinking to myself
This is my last day to live,
So, I’m telling you wright now
“I love you all very much,
I’ll think of you forever
And we will keep in touch.
Just someday in heaven.
I’ll see you all out there.”
I’m picking up that knife
And taking my own life,
I felt the chill through my body
The pain is going away,
I’m asking myself
“Am, I already dead?”
My eyes are turning black,
My heart is stopping fast,
My hands are very cold.
They are stiff and not moving at all,
I’m dead, my body is cold,
I didn’t feel that pain at all.
Now that I’m turning all blue,
The red river of blood that surrounds me,
Now it’s all over the floor.
Now, that I’m on my way to heaven
Stars of journey,
As velvet morning rise,
Hidden from the rain
Purity of love in disguise
I’m breathing as Monday comes,
A heavenly gift has arrived to my home,
Crazy, as I’m running up that hill,
I’m pushing my limits,
And justifying my love,
The miracle of illusion
As dancing shadows come,
A heaven in my eyes
As the cross of changes,
I move through the fair sky,
As the gate opens to heaven,
And on one perfect sunrise,
I dream of machine,
That will teach me to whisper
As I hold your hands.
And the sound of still water,
Across an ocean of dreams,
As I’m asleep,
I know it is too late,
But it is my own fate,
I needed to escape
And be free,
As I open my eyes,
I feel free from my own kind,
And it let me pass in peace,
I needed to be released,
Now down I lie,
I did the suicide
Goodbye.
N
Z