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Dad
Where are you?
I want to know
If you really 
Care about me;
Why did you let me go?
Are you ashamed of me?
Were you scared?
It hurts growing up 
Not knowing who you are,
What you look like,
Or if you ever really cared.
And now after sixteen years
You finally decide you wanna
Have me in your life.
Well forget it, I stoped
wanting you in mine years ago.
just so everyone knows this is about my biological dad not my adopted one (the one i life with now) and the last part isn't entierly true. my biological dad doesn't want me in his life and he probly never will, but a part of me will always want him in mine.

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    • I know that there are no words for me to offer you. I cannot know what it is like to grow up the way you have. I lost my own daughter and a son. Events transpired ultimately that left it all totally out of my control. I could never even touch upon the helplessness and deep depression that enveloped my entire being. That didn't stop me from blaming myself every step of the way which only left me with a devestating sense of shame to the point that I really believed that they would be better off without me. I couldn't reach for them that way. There was a hole in my heart that to this day has not healed. There may be any one of an infinate set of circumstances why he has not tried to find you. Believe me when I say that unless he doesn't know about you he can never ever forget you. I Love my children and it hurts to think about what happenned but I feel helpless still. At times my life is one distraction after another just to not feel and pretty soon there is no life at all. Forgive him for your sake and not his. Don't hold onto what ifs and maybes that almost always are not the truth. Let these things go because they hold you back. He may not be able to reach you. He may not feel worthy. Please don't assume it has anything to do with your worthiness. Have faith that there are great lessons for you in this experience and live those lessons to the fullest. Let them transform you into the beautiful butterfly you are meant to become. Best of Luck to you.
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