When I'm down, when I'm blue,
You were always there to help me through,
You're not just an ordinary friend,
I'm sure your the right person I can depend.
All around, everywhere, yellow, yellow, yellow,
The mist from the Earth to sky, the spaces filled;
Neither the moon, nor stars, nothing was visible,
The dominating fear, my blood, my bones chilled.
The lies I encountered took me by surprise
A sudden depression brought tears to my eyes
Pelted by insults without explanation
I felt all alone and torn with frustration
I'm sitting here trying to find the words to say,
staring at these same walls,
not knowing what I did to make you leave,
spilling my heart onto this paper,
Lord please take me: take me away,
I don’t know what to do: I don't know what to say,
Sometimes I wonder why you put me here,
When you know that one man fills me wit so much fear,
Dear Mr.Y. You proposed me when I was in 8th grade. I was too young to understand love at that time, so I didn't care about you and left you all alone waiting for my answer. You waited for my answer for complete 5 years expecting good news every year whereas you always faced a heart break from my side.
When you sent me that message from tammika
I felt like I was falling so much deeper
How could you belive after I told you I'd told you I'd never leave?
You broke my heart and tore it in to and even now I still love you