I cry out and try to get the help I need,
I feel nowadays only the lord is with me,
I just want to scream and shout,
I want to fix everything, just let it all out.
So I told him two weeks ago. He seemed ok about it. But now we hardly talk. Never have, like, anymore fun together. I see him everyday. And now I have to deal with him at play practice. I think it might be my fault, because sometimes he tries to get my attention, and I just act like I don't notice him.
Ok. I like this guy who is really close to me. He's two years older than me but I can just tell him everything. It kind of seems like he likes me, but I don't know if he does or not.
Did you know that it is you who is causing all of this pain,
This shame, this worry, this awe, this way of life,
my little star of David?
Everyday I think of how to fix this,
As the crowd clears out, I search for you.
I look for your face, I see no signs.
I want you to feel the way I do.
I guess it just isn't the right time.