I was not ready for Love
Love was just a far away dream to me
And then you came along
unexpectedly

You came as if by magic
an online friend from far away
but as we spoke about our own lives
and our sadness

I forgot for a while about my own
From far away you dried my tears
The connection felt so close
I told myself that I was falling in love
and tried to caution myself
because we were so far away

But love is love
no matter what we say

When you give someone your heart
and let them in
both happiness and sadness begin
I know this is the way it must be

I know you cared
I never doubted you
It scared me that I didn't know
where it would lead

But in my dreams I truely walked with you
and recalled and imagined walking in the mountains
you described and in your photograph
Always in my dreams we were hand in hand

I dreamed of the lagoon
you wished to take me to
and I imagined riding a chairlift with you
so happy we were in that dream
teaching you to ski

There were many things we spoke of
and I wish you knew they were all true
I know somehow you do

When your mother died I cried for you
and felt your pain
it hurt to be so far away
I know you needed someone close
and I'm happy you found someone
to give you the physical comfort you needed

I understand because I have the same need
to be held and cared for
and cherished
I know you wanted to lean against my shoulder
and let your tears fall
I would have kissed them all away

My heart breaks each time at the thought of you
You were the only one who ever understood me
and truly saw things through my eyes

The day we spoke of Mary
We realized a difference in our religions
but we really were under the same God
I pray he always watches over you and protects you
becaue you have lived through enough sadness
and you deserve happiness and love

Life feels a short journey now
and while life has seemed sad and unfair
you made my heart feel love again
which before was missing
A part of you will always reside in me
a reminder of the fragile nature of things
and what is inside of me