I sit here night after night, thoughts whirling around in my head,

Remembering our conversations, those brief moments that we snatch each day.

My heart hurts so much, I long to see your face, feel your touch

I try to hold back the tears, but they still stream down my face.

I want so hard to believe everything you say, but the doubts keep creeping in,

I am so afraid that I will lose you forever and in doing so I will lose myself.

This insurmountable task that we face makes me feel so sad,

It just seems that God does not want us to be together.

I don’t want an imaginary lover,

I want to feel your love, nurture it and watch it grow.

I need you to complete my existence,

To make me feel whole again.

When I gave you my love, I gave you my all,

My heart, my soul, my brain, my whole being.

I beg of you not to let me down, not to break my heart,

I merely exist; I do not live, until we can be together.