You know I don't know how to help anybody anymore
more so I don't know how to help myself as a matter fact.
I don't have a job and I can't really get one because my parents
wont' let me until we move to a different town. My friends are leaving
me well I really don't think they were really my friends to begin with you know?
I don't know anymore. I wish that I could stop thinking so negatively and think about
the good things in life and stop pushing people away from me, but the only reason why I
do that so I don't get hurt by their words or what they do to me. If I push them away their
problems wont affect me and I won't get so mad how their problems are affecting them. I just
wanna stop being naiive and nice and start being affirmative like I know what I'm talking about, no
more me questioning myself. I wish that I could start being postivie for at least a week, That would make me happy~

Rachel, 18