WOW..i havent been writting for a while..i was just reading my old stories and thinking how im still not over

I can't take this no more
The lies, the pain, the thought of myself
I just want to hide deep inside myself where nobody will look
All the fairy tales say once upon time...

This all started a couple of years ago when my mother's friends son liked me. We were close friends we always together with other friends are family but then I found out that he had feelings for me. His mom found out and would always mention it in front of me and my mom and I would always feel weird.