sometimes i dont know what i really like to happen in my life,i have long term relationship,sometimes i feel so love with him,but there's a time im feel numb,there's a time i wanna be alone till the rest of my life,but everytime,im trying look forward being alone till end,always came up in my head it cant be happen,because im a human and i need somebody next to me,somebody will look after to me till my last breath,but im not pretty sure if 'he is the one' but im still hoping 'he will be the  LAST,because im getting tired to dreaming someone i can be with till my last breath,i wanna be settle my life with somebody i can tell 'MINE' whole be 'MINE'sometimes 'god is good but mostly of the time god is bad,because he never let us be happy,happy today,sad for the rest of are lives,he is not fair....sometimes i blame god why he let this happen to me...i try to be good,i tried my best to let somebody happy and make them secure,but god never let me be happy...