Nikki, and haley...
neither one of you may get how much i hate him, not why or whats going through my head... but heres as close as i can come to it, and about the last line.... i think maybe its a guy thing... but when you care about someone.... like i or your father care about you... doing things like matt... its one of the few things that make guys mad enough to want to kill or seriously inflict pain... 

not my suffering not my pain

not my place to hate that name

but it burns so hot 

like apocalypse raining down on this spot

like hell open up and hate pouring out

demons running round profanity they shout

and all that seems to exist 

is the anger that hits

the words he said

the way he messed with your head

the heart he crushed

and things that should be hushed

and i cant seem to get them out to

forgive him like you

cause vengence seems to have seeped within

and you dont even want to know what i would do to him

the pain he caused, would be

nothing compared to, would he

even show his face

after i showed him his place

would he still try and screw 

with anyone so caring as you

or is it just how low he is

that he would poison something like this

the love im sure you had

for him before everything turned bad

jesus may forgive

but a man that cares

like a father or the man who loves you, look anywheres

world around, each one would say, hes lucky he lives