here is my story..it all started where everyone is still on the process of knowing each other, everyone seems to mind his/her bussness. I work in the office where no one seems to know everybody except the big boss. we were job orders to work as an individual but most especially as a team if it will be for the big boss.as the days of my work is passing, i have the opportunity to know all the staff of that office.everyone is fast approachable some are snub but for me i can easily get into their attitude,.for the 6 months that i work there, positive comments where thrown unto me, some say am helpful, some say am nice, but come to think of it, i have an attitude problem.I really cant deal with other person that were so full of ughh i dont know, but nweiz aside from the work i have recieved, i recieved also the gift of love, yuck!..i dont know but am not being so happy bout it. in the first place, i am so boyish but deep inside me i crave for love, am not being a cow here but am not so pretty, am chubby but cute (lolz) but then they find me attractive,and that's the problem. the guys who find me that lovable have already a partner and the craziest thing is we were working in the same office.tell ya guys the truth but i kinda feel some of them, eeewww for me but i never do anything stupid to let them know, i just keep it inside me.funny thing also is they hang out together but never talk about it,its between me and them individually who knew bout that love bet-us-thing.LOLz..funny but i kinda love the game though, i hate it but its better like this than going into a relationship that will not last long, i have experienced it twice and it really hurt me bad..nweiz bout that funny love of mine, i actually befriend one of them as in getting into a a best friend thing, i told him bout my secret and i trust him, i easily trust somebody so thats my weakness, nweiz he give sort of advice, yeah he told me he like me and so was i but i kinda doubt it coz he got a kid but they aint wed yet or i dont know, he told me if i can wait he will push through to court me if the thing bet him and the girl will be settled,the question is, when will be over between them when they have a kid already?do i get the reward for being the stupidest gurl if i will welcome him in my life?.i told him that one time and he told me "if you really love me,can you wait..?" damn! i was confused that time and i dont know the answer, words were playing in my mind.like i was struck by a lightning,confused answers in my mind like "yes,if love will get through,","no coz am afraid of karma", "dont know coz am afraid to be talked about"..but for the pass days we were silent, so to keep off with that guy for a moment i flirted (thats my game nway LOLz.am a bad gurl nway) with the other boy, he really like me but he cant define it for the reason he got a real family, so i do it quietly not to mention being spoiled by him, he always respect me but when he got drunk he always call and confess all his love to me coz he nevr tell it when he's not but i already knew bout it ..LOLz..this i never told my best friend (the guy) coz i cant hurt him coz am getting to love hm more but i just cant coz am afraid..nweiz back to the guy i flirted,one day we were going somewhere (work),him and me only in the car, then i just blab bout the drunk-tell-her u-love-her..whew! he got annoyed and silence for a sec and then look at me again and again and i just know what got into me to tell hm in a sec. then he stopped the car and looked at me, i just got nervous but my eyes were infront, suddenly he leaned to kiss me and i just resist it but my lips is craving for his.LOLzz he kiss me like for ten seconds and then he continue driving.after that incident i never get to flirt with him coz i just cant stand about it..NOW, am in a tug-of-war between me and the stupid love that got into me, how can i be so crazy.when can i behave like a good girl,.when i can stop this stupid thing of mine?.do i get to be beaten up for this wrong doings?.,thanx for reading it =)